Friday, December 31, 2010

End of 2010

Woah I am chionging this post before this year comes to a close. Haha.. 2010 is quite a bad year for me.. and it can't even get worse anymore. Near the end of the year, I fell sick! Ouch! I had no idea why I fell sick. It started with a gastric pain a few days ago. I did not skip any meals :( Was it because of stress? Haiz.. I overdosed myself with antacids and after 24 hours, the pain still lingered. I could not sleep in the first night. I woke up 2x.. Once to take 1 tablet.. and since I woke for the second time because of the pain, I took another tablet. Sigh.. Perhaps next time I should straight away take 2 tablets :( I am thinking of upgrading to H2-antagonist. or perhaps a liquid-based antacid. But I think the pharmacists will ask me to see doctor first :( I look so bo-boy, the pharmacists won't give me 'adult' medicine de..

I also felt unwell, with a bit of headache, and funny body temperature. I know recently the weather is quite cooling. But still shivering even with the lowest speed of fan + blanket just does not seem right. After showering, I always feel even weirder. Some parts of my body will feel warm and some are cold. Oh gosh! Yesterday when I went out, I wore double layer and I was still feeling cold.. -_-"

Although I was not very fit, I decided to go for a new year celebration yesterday. It kinda suck to feel sick during celebration :( But at least it lifted up my mood. Haha.. Hilarity always occurs when I have gathering with my friends. I had no time go wrap the gift for my gift exchange so I wrapped it on the place. Thank goodness I was one of the early birds. I did not even know what to call my own gift (LOL!) and since there was no tape, I used rubber band to secure the wrapping. Damn jialat.. Haha..

There was a time when crumbs were present on my friend's hair. I helped to remove and put in into a waste plate (on the table) in front of her. But for the 2nd crumb, I put it into the plate she was holding (and eating from!). I seriously thought I put it in the waste plate so when the rest was laughing, I was still like "what is so funny?". Haha.. When sharing about holiday activity, one friend went "carolling". Guess what did I hear? Cameroon! I was gonna ask whether he went to Cameroon in Africa or Cameron Highlands (in Malaysia). I think I was seriously sick..

Anyway for the gift exchange, I got SAKE! Woohoo.. I don't normally like alcoholic beverage.. under normal circumstances, I would just give away the gift.. Somemore I had gastric =x how to drink alcohol. But this time, it is SAKE! I never tried before.. So I will take the risk.. Haha.. I managed to not try it yesterday.. But for today, since it is the new year eve, I will just 'hantam'. I pray that my stomach can take it. Hahaha..

Monday, December 27, 2010

Godhand Teru

The story revolves around a young man named Mahigashi Teru. When he was young, his father, a brilliant surgeon, died in an accident, but not before saving Teru's life. As a result, Teru also aims to become a great surgeon like his father, devoted to never letting a patient die. As a clumsy newcomer at his hospital, he seems to be an unlikely savior. But whenever a patient's life is in danger, his true powers emerge in the form of his "god hands," allowing him to successfully perform even the most difficult operations.

My opinion:
I was so eager when I knew this dorama would come out since I love the manga so much! There is a healthy mix of human drama, humour, as well as medical stuff. Unfortunately, the moment I read that there are only 6 episodes, I somehow feel that this is gonna be a disappointment.

My first disappointment is about the cast. I don't think they manage to display the comical effects as in the manga. Some look way too old for people in their 30s. Oh well.. And it was crazy that they replace Teru's rival to a woman in the live action! Yeah I know they want to have some pretty girl to spice up the show but I thought the nurse is good enough (Ayano is played by the girl in Rookies ^^). My problem is: females do not understand rivalry! When females are involved, rivalry and healthy competition turn into bitchiness and jealousy. Urgh.. And I cannot stand to watch another actress that I like to be this bitchy woman. Haha..

Story-wise, I am glad that Japanese never fail to show the more human side, rather than the medical side, of the stories. As compared to Voice (another medical-theme dorama), Godhand Teru is less touching though. And the biggest mistake is that the producer somehow makes this into a science-fiction/fantasy genre rather than a medical drama. In the story, clumsy Teru suddenly becomes serious and good when his patient is near death. In the manga, the transformation is due to his desire not to let the person die.. But in the dorama, it seems like a magic. It seems like Teru is a lousy guy who suddenly transformed into having his father's ability after a "heart attack" is triggered. The term "Godhand" also becomes "like God's hand to pull back the dying into the living" in the dorama rather than referring to a very skillful surgeon as in the manga. And I absolutely have no idea how the idea about "jealousy from other doctors" come into play in the dorama. Bleah.

In short there is nothing fantastic about this dorama. It has failed to reproduce the same effects like the manga. It is not funny, the story is not touching enough, the medical parts are explained in a very quick pace for people to even regard this as a medical dorama, there is no romance whatsoever. No idea what genre this show will fit into.

My afterthoughts:
Medical-related shows always show the 'dark' side of the medical world (read: hospital). Haha.. It is not a lie.. I am sure that some unethical profit-oriented doctors are present in real life too! Being admitted into a hospital or undergoing a surgery is really a matter of luck in regards to what types of medical professionals who handle your case.

The theme which continously being echo-ed throughout the series is: there is no such thing as luck in medical treatment. In my opinion, there is! Call it luck or call it fate. I am not a doctor/surgeon so I don't know how true the surgery situations depicted here. But certainly, it is kinda scary to see almost every patient goes into "asystole" state during the surgeries here. It is really life or death at any moment during the surgery.. And like in one of the episode, after the procedure is done, the surgeon can only say "We have done what we can as doctors.. The rest depends on the patient's body.. and her willpower to survive". For me, when it is time for you to die, you will die no matter what treatment you get.. When it is not your time yet, no matter what disaster (or medical error) befalls you, you will still survive. Haha..

One wonderful thing (which I know will never ever happen in reality) depicted here is the good working relationship between the doctors, nurses, and patients. Wow! If only such things are REAL, my profession will be much more interesting and enjoyable one.. Seeing how they work together as a team (during surgeries) make me realise how sad pharmacy as a profession is. Pharmacists don't really get to work together or even be engaged in  life-or-death situation.. I guess that's where the lack of passion stems from. Facing life or death situation makes people more human.. There is certainly an invisible string which bond the people together when they all work to save this poor man/woman/child. When faced with this kind of thing, we realise that we can be that poor man/woman/child we are helping now. Thus, we should be thankful that we are in the position to help them.. But well, that's the ideal.. In reality, most people grow heartless as they watch people live and die day after day.. And that is the problem with healthcare system: to find people who really have the passion to help.. Heart should come first... brain second... :)

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Unexpected Christmas!

I had Christmas once in Cambodia.. I had one in Pontianak.. I basically hate to celebrate Christmas away from home.. away from my Christmas music and Disney show.. It makes me lacking of Christmas spirit.. So what could be worse than celebrating Christmas at ulu places like Cambodia and Pontianak? It's celebrating Christmas HERE in Singapore! Urgh! Stuck in the lab! Thinking of stupid project whose outcome looks ugly..

Thank God for He is a jealous God! It seems that He won't let people have a bad mood during his Birthday! Haha.. To be honest, I did not expect that my mood was pretty upbeat yesterday. Though I had quite a freak experimental experience yesterday, it was still salvage-able.. I am running out of time so this is my final try and I am really hoping for a Christmas miracle..

Singapore is a secular country. Thus, I never expect that Christmas Eve is just a big deal here. I was caught surprised when the school was extremely quiet yesterday. It felt as if it was the Chinese New Year eve! The canteen stalls were only open for half day! Haha.. And Christmas is about community spirit too. So it feels good for strangers, like the Western stall auntie, wishing me Merry Christmas.. or for the other professor in my lab wishing me Happy Holidays. A~~~h...

And last night was my first Christmas celebration.. My first in Singapore and my first in my life! Lol..  Actually it was no diff from a normal mass ba.. Easter seems to be a more joyous occasion for the Church. Even the 15mins carolling before the mass was kinda lame to me. Chey! I thought carolling in church was a big experience. It started at midnite and ended at 0115. I reached PGP at 0200 haha.. 45mins walking in the night of Christmas.. It made me feel like the 3 wise men looking for Baby Jesus! But wait, those men were riding camels, weren't they? Haha..

Anyway Christmas is a time of reflection. And yesterday was another good homily. Hearing "Mary and Joseph's faith... following God's plan even without knowing what His plan had for them.. and yada yada..." can be quite boring and old.. But it is something that I need currently :( I honestly am in the stage where I half-hate my project.. Few months ago, I thought it was a nice plan by God to get this seemingly slack project (with 24hours of waiting time kind of thing).. Now everything was the opposite.. Oh well, I guess now I can just leave everything up to Him.. So be it if I have to get 2nd class... So be it if I have to lead a sad life here in Singapore.. So be it if I got some lousy experience for my prereg.. So be it if I am destined to be emo forever.. Afterall, the final destination is to be in Heaven anyway.. Though these sad things would be what hinder me from that destination :(

For this year, my Christmas present (by myself for myself) is just a cheap Santa Hat. Haha.. It has been a longing for me to have one. Unfortunately I had no opportunity to camwhore with it.. Ugly face.. and bad lighting.. and bad camera.. Oh well..

I also updated the links of my past Christmas Youtube stuff here and here.. Blast Youtube for always deleting certain files, only for some people to reupload them again. What a futile effort.. And one last Christmas thing to share: 2010 version of Mariah Carey's O Holy Night.. I am amazed that she still can reproduce the kind of voice that she made many years ago (1994!). Bravo!!

Lastly, I wanna wish Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday, Jesus! I could give You nothing but instead, You gave me a nice Christmas experience this year. Thanks :) To everybody else, Merry Christmas and may the good Lord shower you and your family with His grace and blessings

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Pre-Xmas Emo

Aaah the weather lately is very good for emo-ing. Haiz.. Actually the weather is damn nice lately for holiday mood. Cool, windy, and rainy.. Nice for lying on the bed and slacking :) Too bad I still my screwed up FYP :( Anyway I never expect that too cold weather can disrupt my sleep. But that happened on Sunday. I woke up 3 or 4 times in between my 6 hours of sleep. It was as good as not sleeping. I did not feel too bad upon waking up but I KO-ed on the bus for the Christmas celebration in the evening.

I was a bit reluctant to go :( Not very close with the people so I would feel akward. Gosh but thank goodness I went. The food was great.. It was even greater because the fact that they were all cooked by a few of us there. WOW! They really have good cooking skills. I had a chance to try 4 different liquour without getting any redness or drunkenness haha.. I tried my best to just simply 'taste' them.. I wanted to try all 4 so if I got drunk before that, that would be disappointing haha.. Bailey's Irish Cream was okay.. The milk+coffee liquor was a horrible mixture.. Bacardi something had 40% alcohol so it was burning my throat. The Vodka Mandarin (also 40%!) was the worst of all. Haha... It smelled mild (orange aroma) but upon drinking, urgh.. it really burnt my throat.. and it tasted like drinking those alcohol used in the lab!

Yesterday was the release of exam results. I was quite emo because the sms did not come in the morning. It did come at 330pm though.. Damn lame.. I checked via the website already. As expected, this sem was disastrous. I got my first B. Fucking bitch! Well, I was a bit scared of failing that module so I guess B was okay :( It pulled down my CAP by a lot :'(

My future lies with my FYP now :( Regardless how I do for next sem, my class is determined by my project.. Looks like I will be 2nd class anyway.. Perhaps that is the biggest reason that I was not suicidal upon seeing the B yesterday... Gosh..

Come to think of it, I feel as bad as 3 years ago, year 1 sem 1. I was very down to be an average student just then.. But miracle happened with my results that sem.. A miracle that never happened again.. Now I think that miracle was a curse.. If from the start I am an average student, I don't need to be very stressed after all.. And now, I guess I am back to where I should be: average.. Still, I feel a pang of sadness.. And I will definitely hate or love my supervisor forever and ever. Haha.. She holds the key to my future... Lol.

Anyway my project is doomed. I had been doing nothing for the past week. My filter hasn't arrived :( Really die.. I almost had a big shock of my life today. The person doing analysis sounded as if my sample was lost! Oh God!! Thank goodness she just forgot about it.. It was too "long" ago haha.. 1 week only.. I just can't help that I really have a sad life.. There is nothing I can do about my project.. I wanna shout I wanna scream I wanna cry for my poor luck.. Why do I get something so new that there is no data that I can refer or compare? Why am I given so little materials? Why does my lab do not have things that I need? Why are my processes taking days to weeks to do and confirm? Why why why? It is really unfair :( I will lose everything that I have worked hard for for the last few years just because of these things I have no control of :( Really lousy luck :( Or call it fate... Aaah I am fated to have a cursed life.. Everything is a mistake from the first day God decided to bring me into this life T_T

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Where is my Christmas Spirit?

In Hollywood and Disney Christmas-themed movies, 'Christmas Spirit' is mentioned quite often. I never seem to understand its significance and I always feel that it is just a cliche thingy during Christmas season. Unfortunately, now I am experiencing the lack of Christmas Spirit. Haha.. I admit that my previously there had always been anything special with my Christmas-es since I don't really celebrate. But at least, I always waited for it eagerly in previous years. Even listening to old Christmas songs and watching the same few Disney Christmas shows gave me a huge excitement. This year, I totally feel unexcited about Christmas at all. Yea thanks to FYP and all the morbid thoughts about my bleak future and my hated life here. Those Christmas songs, which I have been listening every year for more than 5 years (or is it 10?) become boring. I tried to find Christmas albums by more recent singers but I don't think they are fantastic. I just feel so sian.. It isn't going to be a blue Christmas. It's gonna be a BLACK one for me :(

Today was my last day of work for 2010. It was a Christmas Opera by a Methodist Church. I kinda had a bad day. From the matinee show, I kept getting scoldings by everyone for whatever I do. Bleah.. Lousy day.. Anyway, it was kinda good to watch a Christmas-y show ba.. The plot is a cliche: someone from modern life had a brief encounter of death and in her moment of unconsciousness was sent to the times before the First Christmas. It was very lame to see Herod's guards and concubines were dressed in Chinese Opera style o_0 while dancing to Indian tune during their party. But for fun, entertainment value, and laughter, I guess the cast did excellently! Lol.. I like the kind of jokes which are from daily lives. No need to try too hard to make people laugh. Just use whatever funny insider jokes and apply them in the context of 2000years ago, and everything would just become funny. This is the kind of formula that I always use when thinking of script for role play etc ba haha...

Anyway the show did not quite inject some Christmas spirit into me. Haha.. However, there was something that made my day! I had a few patrons who wished me Merry Christmas after the show ended. Wow.. One even offered a handshake. I almost declined but since I saw her hand had been 'there' for quite sometime, I guess no harm to just return the handshake. I never thought that getting a simple Merry Christmas from strangers could be that exciting. Lol.. But it was a good feeling.. Now I know why the angmohs in the movies always say Merry Christmas to anybody they meet during the Christmas season.

Still, at the end of the day, I feel 'dead'.. No Christmas spirit.. Perhaps I should go for a celebration that I am invited to this Monday.. Who cares about stupid FYP :(

Do You Hear What I Hear?
I find this song memorable right from the first time I hear it.. Perhaps because out of so many Christmas albums that I own, this song only appears in ONE album. Lol

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Advent 2010

I was curious about "penitential service" so I went for one yesterday. I sorta guessed that it was related to confession, perhaps a mass with prayers and intentions for sins forgiveness etc. I was surprised to find that it was a proper individual confession. So basically it began like the usual mass. But the Eucharist was replaced with queueing for making confession. It was quite interesting to see confessions done in express, perhaps <5 minutes for each person.

I was honestly shocked during the reflection (examination of conscience). Everything (yeah EVERYTHING, not ALMOST everything) which was listed there applied to me.. I am showing ingratitude, outburst of anger, black moods, not true to my Baptismal promises, etc etc. It was 3-ppt slides long (perhaps about 20 things being mentioned) and it all.

Anyway this time I was not given any "punishment" le! Lol.. Haha.. The priest advised me to join a Ministry. I was like o_0 From my experiences so far, joining church-related communities have not been satisfying to me. Oh well, I just open my heart.. If really it is God's will, it will happen anyway. The priest found what I said to be quite unbelievable haha.. He told me "You seem like a lively person". Lol.. "Lively" is the last word I will think that people will ever use to describe me..

It was another occasion when I actually realise Sacraments are not some bullshit by the church or something. Well, I felt kinda different after yesterday, at least for awhile. Haha.. Some will say that it is because when you actually speak your problems to someone, you feel lighter/better etc. Not really so for me haha.. Lately I have been complaining about my projects to whomever I meet but I never feel as 'light' as yesterday. Ah.. too bad it's a short-lived feeling.. But certainly, everytime I feel a deep resentment to God, somehow the sacrament feels different..

Something from the homily yesterday was very nice. The priest said that Christmas is Jesus' birthday, so we should ask him what he wants for his birthday. Haha.. Well, putting things into perspective, what he said was kinda nice.. Everytime during Christmas, I am too busy thinking of what presents I should buy for myself :p So certainly it is time to ask:

"Dear God, what Christmas present do you want from me?"

Friday, December 10, 2010

A long post for a long week

Initially I was thinking whether to share the good things or the bad things first. But then I realised that everything is equally emo. Haha.. So I shall go by chronological order then. Lol.. Beware, though, this is gonna be terribly lo~~~~~ng.

I had my dental cleaning on Tuesday. My oral hygiene has improved a lot. But I was told that my front tooth is showing signs of demineralisation!! Ouch! What the hell :'( I wanted to cry.. Despite the crazy things that I do to my teeth daily, how can such things be possible T_T Anyway I can't help it. Under normal lighning, there is no way I can tell which teeth are healthy which teeth are jialat. It has to be under strong light (like the dental chair kind) to see the difference. Well, I guess that really makes the once every 3 months cleaning appointment be of utmost importance to me right now. No more delaying to try to save money anymore. A high concentration of fluoride was applied to that tooth and I could not eat and drink for 2 hours. I wonder how the thing worked/was absorbed but I hope the thing did wonders :( And that treatment caused my stomach to be empty for 16hours wew...

I always learn new things from the dental cleaning visits. Long time ago, I learnt that when there is blood during flossing, instead of stop flossing, keep on flossing. The blood means there are bacteria colonies there. Anyway the blood should be dirty blood, not fresh blood. Point noted.. Not too long ago, I learnt that it is ok to floss all the way down to the gums (I always thought it would cause any bleeding), that when it is getting harder to put the floss in between teeth, it means that the gaps are closing (I always thought that the floss would cause the gaps to widen), and that to use the tongue and feel grooves as a sign of no tartar (I always thought no groove is good!). This time, I was taught how to brush my teeth haha.. It was quite interesting. She taught me to angle the brush from the top to clean in between the teeth. I always thought I should angle it from below! Lol..

These experiences made me regret that I did not give dentistry a try at all for my university education. Sigh.. Now I feel that dentists work in a relatively nice environment. There is no rush, there is nice and fuzzy clinic, and the most interesting is there is genuine relationship among staff and with the patients. I don't think I will even get that from pharmacy. Bleah.. No point crying over spoilt milk so I guess the lesson I learnt is: just whack send job application to retail, private, and polyclinic. Later on then choose.. Don't limit my options right from the start! I will never know whether someday I find out that private or polyclinics are better than retail or something like that.

My second batch of anime books finally arrived! Wow.. Registered mail really did wonders. It came within 2 working days. I am amazed that the guy sent on Friday 520pm and it was delivered by Tuesday 9am. Wow!! I am deeply satisfied with 2 books, so-so with 1, and disappointed with 1. The so-so one is the most expensive. Geez.. The art from the games/anime I don't know is not that good! I actually chose this one over since it has a combination of the art from another 2 books. This book has art from other titles while if I choose the 2 books, I will have to settle with many B&W pages.. But at least they are still manga of the anime I like! Haiz.. Sad.. The book I am disappointed with is really due to my carelessness. I was too eager to buy that I did not read the description properly. There are only 20+ coloured pages.. The rest is B&W and worse is: MANY ARE WRITINGS!! GGRRRRAH!! Oh well :(

 The 2 original books which I want (I only want the coloured pictures the artist - Kyoko Tsuchiya. I don't want the rest of the B&W pages!)

 Collection of all artwork by Kyoko Tsuchiya (I only like the Weiss pictures!)

With more books, my drawer no longer has the space. It is time for me to get a plastic container box. And guess what, at 8pm, I decided to go to Kinokuniya and then to Giant. Why Kino? Actually right after done with my dentist in the morning, I saw the third book from the Manga Bible series. I wanted to buy but I was hoping that there will be 20% Xmas sale or something. Haha.. But since I needed to go out, might as well right? Even at the bus stop I was still considering whether to go out that late. Well, 95 came before A1 or A2 so off I went. Lol..

Talking about book, I read a bit of the Chinese Horoscope book for nxt year. I became damn emo! Oh gosh, it's Rabbit Year next year and how on earth that Rabbit has the shittiest luck? I don't know how these things go so I can't describe why they say it is gonna be bad.. Conclusion is: I will be doomed.. Haiz.. Many bad things have entered my mind: failed project, 2nd class, I will hate my prereg place, and many more.. :'(

The manga was kinda disappointing for me too. One thing for sure, the artist is different from the previous 2 book. I hate this one.. Very manga style.. Even the males look like females (esp the eyes). Anyway the book contains the stories from creation up to Moses crossing the Red Sea. Reading this makes me wonder about my faith. It is quite appalling to see the the early fathers of faith are not much different from criminals: they fought over wealth, they killed, they took wives and concubines, etc.. It seems that human beings are not much different from what they were thousands of years ago.

From Vivo, I discovered that Best is having IT fair this week, and the netbook that I want is there too!! Gosh.. Toshiba NB-520. There is green colour, there is free DVD slot (I can install my ms office), estimated battery life is 8-10 hours, but one big downside, the POSITION of the speaker.. It will collect dust easily! But anyway, I think I can say bye to buying netbook liao. I brought my laptop to the lab and the wi-fi was bad. No point bringing there since I cannot kill time to buy time facebook also.

I am done with Tuesday! Fiuh.. Seems like "A long Tuesday" would be more appropriate. Haha.. Anyway I went to bank yesterday to check my registered address and about my debit card. Seems like I cannot do internet shopping without applying for iBanking first! Gah! So how on earth that PayPal could deduct my $3 few weeks ago for a registration (which obviously failed.. duh)? This is seriously a bad thing.. The moment I can do internet shopping, OMG there are tonnnes of things from Ebay that I want to buy!! Thank goodness I am not into anything currently. My irrational craze is always over the anime stuff which was from 10+ years ago. It will stop sooner or later haha..

This weekend there is an anime fair again at Suntec. I will give it a miss =( Thanks to stupid FYP I have no time to enjoy life.. I will have to give Narnia a miss too T_T I'm really sad.. Anyway I gotta work this weekend. Thanks to stupid FYP, I hardly can work during weekdays.. I really need to earn a bit since my expenses for the past anime books have been higher than normal. Gotta earn a bit ma..

I am near to the end of the post! Yeah the final rant is about my project.. I feel that this week is terribly long is because I spent 10+ hours daily in the lab! And I don't know why but I could only get 5 hours of sleep daily. I did not set up any alarm clock but I would always wake up 5 hours after I sleep. I am a living zombie now.. And I am terribly emo. With this kind of investment, I still getting remarks like "lazy", "slow", "not thinking". Seriously! How much more am I supposed to give? :( I am not in the mood to go into the details now sigh.. Anyway I spent too much on this post already so maybe I will go into the details when I have the mood.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


There are so many depressing things going on with my life currently. I actually cannot afford the time for blogging. But the thing I am about to write is really infuriating..

Call me jealous, childish, etc and I don't care... But tell me, do I have reasons to feel jealous, angry, being treated unfair and other negative feelings?

You gave permission to my sister to get a $888 handphone (iPhone!). And last time you were screaming for my $1000 airfare ticket to Korea!
Last time you disapproved my ~$600 camera phone and you gave my sister a digital camera and a phone!
You lambasted my $1800 laptop, something that I could not survive with in university. And you bought my sister $1500 laptop (and another $1400 for my other sister) which they did not really need.
Eh but wait, my PSP did not get scolded! Aaah that was because I did not even bother to say. Haha..

And please stop saying about whose money bla bla bla.. My whole money here has been mixed up with yours up to the point I don't know whose money I am spending. And do I give a damn that in terms of absolute amount of money, I need more than my sisters? No! If you wanna dump your son away in other countries, then you better have enough money to support him in the first place. And who taught me to be so anal about money matters? YOU!! So blame yourself! I also would be happy if I were nurtured in a different way and to be able to just spend money as if money rains on earth everyday.

Grr.. But looks like I will buy that stupid iPhone eventually.. And that's not because I am nice or what.. It's just out of goodwill.. To repay my sister for helping me to get that anime book. Well, I REGRET IT! I found out that I have a friend here who has a paypal account to help me.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Retail "therapy"

FYP is a life sucker but for this post, lets forget about it first. I had a clique outing on Friday and we ate at Astons Prime. The name sounds expensive, doesn't it? The good news is: they have fantastic food in a nice place with reasonable price. I paid $23.90 for steak + chicken combo. Suprise #1: I expected a half serving of steak and a half serving of chicken. But I got a FULL serving of steak and chicken each. OMG! Wow! Although the steak was too "well-done" aka hard to be eaten ba.. All of us were astounded with the large servings that we received. Surprise #2: I paid what I saw in the menu. $23.90 is inclusive of GST and service charge. That is just WOW! Yea a big WOW! Lol..

Thank to stupid FYP, everyone's day ended late and it was pretty late after our meal. We wanted to go somewhere to chill but alas Singapore night life just sucked. There was nowhere to go and everyone was camping at either Starbucks, Coffee Club, Coffee Beans, etc. Shopping malls closed as usual. Come on! It was Friday night and it's holiday time!! Bleah!! Wanted to have a drink but there was no seat for 7 ppl.. Zzz.. Actually since I was at Marks and Spencer, I was already eyeing the alcoholic beverage. Haiz.. I feel like just getting drunk and forget forget all about this life..

I had the urge to buy a netbook again. I wanted to buy today so yesterday I was looking for price. Anyway in the end I decided not to buy. The MS Office is so expensive! No point getting a netbook if I cannot use it for my work. I still have MS Office 2007 original CD but they *bang* I remember netbook has no CD drive. Meaning I cannot use the CD or I have to fork out money for external CD drive, something I don't wish to have. Oh well, anyway lessons learnt :) Next time really should just go at those huge electronic exhibitions. Although the prices are the same, the additional stuff (eg. RAM upgrade, extended warranty, etc) is better.

Thanks to my window shopping yesterday, I have new gadget in my "WTB" list: XBOX Kinect!! Haha.. Yesterday I saw someone demo-ing the thing. I was just blown away. There is no joystick or controller whatsoever. Just swipe your hands in the air. This reminds me of the high tech stuff which I saw in Science Centre. I thought how long it will take to finally have a computer which only has a screen and the whole navigation system is just by using our hands.. Looks like the technology is not that far. Haha.. Anyway the demo guy is quite cute. He kept smiling to himself. I think he was quite embarassed to demo. Only kids and parents were looking and he was trying to get any kid to try the machine. The kids were too shy so he had no choice but to demo. Haha.. Lol.. It was a dance game and I was like woaaa... This is nothing like Dance Dance Revolution (only need to step at the 4 directional squares) or its variation (the one need to wave your hand to appropriate direction). This is literally dancing!! The movement includes squatting, neck movements, shoulder movements etc. No wonder the guy was paiseh.. Haha.. But oh well, why the hell did he choose a Lady Gaga song? That made it more embarassing..

Now I think the most expensive pieces of electronic gadgets are HANDPHONES. Bleah.. Xbox + Kinect costs $469.. Nowadays, newer phones are like $600+ Woot... That is even more expensive than netbook and low end laptops. But still, I don't understand why people wanna spend like $800+ for iPhone. Come on, no matter what it does, it is still a phone! An overpriced phone! Haha and now I am more than sure not to help my sister to get an iPhone. Lol.. I'm an anti-Apple. Sorry.. I refuse to give my money to Apple.. and I will also not help someone else gives their money for overpriced piece of gadget.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Yesterday was the SECOND time I got the hints along the line that "I am lazy", "I am seldom in the lab", "I am not producing enough results", "Slow progress", etc. I had ENOUGH. Haiz.. I am very angry.. I wanted to tell the truth and explain but I was worried that I would sound too angry and too rude. Bleah.. I plan to formulate my argument better and see how on Monday.

I am just very agitated with all the nonsense that progress is equal to how much time spent in the lab. My reactions are all 24 hours and I will not be that insane to sit there do nothing and watch the damn thing stirring. I got 3 main problems: 
1) Nobody has done the freaking thing I am doing now so everything is trial now, so I cannot use a lot of materials, need to repeat a lot bla bla bla 
2) Every part of the stupid experiment needs 24 hours.. and that's a LOT of time!!
3) Too little materials are given to me.. everytime I can only use a bit a bit... I do right or wrong also in the end must repeat
4) I cannot do things in parallel since everything is continuous.. I need to make A and B, then combine A and B together for the next step.. If combining A and B fails, I need to repeat making A and B again.. gaaah... the whole process takes me a total of NINE days!! Gosh.. So NINE days for one result provided that I do everything flawlessly
5) I am not productive. During all the 24hours waiting time, there is simply that I can do..

OH MY GOD! I thought I only have 3 problems.. I have MORE than that.. Sigh.. That shows how hopeless my stuff is la.. Lame shit :'(

Thursday, December 2, 2010

The time that I hate is finally here. I have to be a full-time FYP slave now. Gaaah... Anyway only after 2 days, I fell sick already. Perhaps that was because 11 hours straight on the second day. I had a pretty bad sore throat. The sore throat is not 100% gone and now headache, stomachache, diarrhea, lethargy and insomnia. Ironic eh? I need more sleep but I keep waking up in the middle of the night/early morning. I don't know they are Danzen's adverse effects or FYP adverse effects.. Sigh..

I was looking for sorethroat medicine urgently. Thank God I could ask for a help from my senior at NUH. Lol.. Despite using 'shortcut' it was still too long waiting time for me. Haha.. Too much red tape in hospital la. No way I will work in hospital Lol.. And the medicine is not much cheaper anyways T_T Why are medicines so expensive here while pharmacists are paid so cheaply?

Eits, what is the above random picture? Haha.. today Starbucks is giving free drinks. The "tall" size.. Oh my, I am not a Starbucks fan and when I read "tall", I thought it was the LARGEST size.. Well, too good to be true rite? Anyway "tall" is the smallest size in Starbucks. Haha.. Since it was free, I shall not complain. I tried the nut toffee something (Christmas special drinks) and again, I just can't love Starbucks ba. Haha.. I still prefer Coffee Bean and Spinelli. I queued about 10 mins before the event start. Got my drinks in about 30mins (with about 40 people in front of me). Actually this is meant to be a charity event. But too bad, I don't think people donate. Haha.. I went to West Coast Plaza and most people there were either school kids (on holidays now..) or NUS students. Lol~~ We students are poor creatures k :p

My project is still as depressing and as hopeless as ever so I am not in the mood to rant about it..

I just end the post with the clip below. Found it featured on youtube main page 2 days ago as the "most watched" under music category. I think this is one of only few Chinese songs that I like. Haha.. I think these 2 guys have very nice voices.. And the best part was the trumpet and violin in the end..

Just one thing lacking: the "emo" expression. At some parts I feel that they wanna show off their vocal skills rather than showing the 'emo' feelings of the song. But oh well, who can beat Guang Liang (the original singer), the king of "emo" love songs :D

Sunday, November 28, 2010

My phones

Since I am rather bored and I am really tempted to get a new phone, I shall 'crap' about the history of phones that I used to own. Lol..

Nokia 3350
This is my first phone. I bought it in  May (or June) 2002 after I completed my junior high school. The price was slightly less than Rp 1.500.000,- (about less than S$ 250 at current exchange rate). Not too fantastic but I don't hate it either. I like the blue case colour (as compared to metallic grey 3310/3330 which was very popular at that time). The highlight of this phone is the backlight which can flicker according to the ringtones, something which was very new and exciting at that time. Ah the vibration varies according to the ringtones too. The vibration and backlight are not monotonous. They literally vary differently for different songs! Other than that, the rest is the same with other phones at that time: black writing + yellow light, 12 inbox + 12 outbox + 9 picture messages, snake + pinball + spaceship shooting games, music composer, notes, alarm, calculator etc. Haha I mention the things that I can remember or features that I often use.

I used the phone for 4+ years before the battery failed. Too bad by that time, Nokia was not even selling the original battery. I used a fake battery which only lasted for 3 days. Lol.. Anyway, as it was dying, its capability started to diminish from: can only be used to sms (for phone calls, the phone had to be charged at the same time) and as alarm until it cannot be used to make calls at all and it did not even have the power to ring the alarm. Before it rested in peace, I changed the casing to Mickey Mouse in the hope of making it more loveable. Anyway since I have 2 sim cards in Singapore, I kept this phone for my spare sim card. I kept this phone until this year (when I got a new phone) and then I shipped this back to my parents for them to do whatever they deem fit. Lol..

Overall, I am fine with this phone. My only unhappiness was: the original casing glitter flaked off, the print on the keypad faded, and the screen became 'cloudy' even with a screen protector. But in all, I am satisfied :D

Sony Ericsson K800i
My second phone which also happens to be my FAVOURITE phone. I bought it in  Feb 2007, right before I had to go back to Singapore to collect my A level results. I bought it not too long after its release so it was quite expensive. Rp. 3.200.000,- (about S$ 500 at current exchange rate). It was considered expensive and my dad refused to pay for it. My mum bought it for me.

Since I had no digital camera, I always wanted a phone with a nice camera. At that time, this 3.2MP camera phone was the best (although unfortunately a few months later, there was another K series with 5MP camera)! Everyone in my house mocked this phone as a 'brick' since it is quite bulky and thick.

Anyway, I love it so much. This is considered a flagship phone by Sony Ericsson at that time and thus every aspect of it is damn good. I love the camera, it has lens cover, the alarm has auto snooze, the speaker is not too bad, the tennis + golf + diving games are good time killers (even up to now!), I downloaded many themes to make the phone even more loveable, and many other things. I know it is not fair to compare it with my previous phone (the technology was too wide in gap) but the vast upgrade from earlier generation really makes this phone a 'part of my life'. I use almost every feature in this phone, except the video call. Lol. Waste money in my opinion. The camera is so good that I brought it to Australia, Thailand, Cambodia, and Korea as a substitute for a digicam which I never have.

Still, I have a few complaints haha.. After a few years, the rubber parts sort of 'died'. They become very sticky and dust loves to adhere to it. The camera is terrible in low light (my expectation is too high I guess,. Come on, it's a phone! not a camera, what do I expect?!). And the joypad was kinda spoilt after few months, although that was partly because I was a hardcore gamer for the first few months. Lol. But after all I am very very satisfied with this. After 3 years, it is still up and running well, although now it becomes my 'spare' phone. I still used it to listen to music and the alarm. In these 2 aspects, this K800i is even better than my current phone! Unbeliavable right..

Although the battery life starts to decrease, it is still doing well. And the best part is: even now Sony Ericsson is still producing the battery (and it is still costly at $$70+ each). I guess this phone still has a long way to go ^o^

Nokia C6
July 2010. My most 'memorable' phone. It lasted LESS THAN 12hours for me! Gosh..  Record breaking. People always say Nokia is lousy when you see how their service centre is always crowded everyday. I decided to give it a try.. I tried my luck and it was bad luck.. In the 3G era, most phones go for the touch screen etc. Unfortunately, I am still old fashioned. Haha.. I use my phone primarily for sms and there is no way I can survive with touch screen. That's why I got hooked to this phone. It has touch screen and keyboard. Nokia's touch screen is good and sensitive (that's a good point!). And this was cheaper than other phones with sliding keyboard (only S$ 98 with contract).

Too bad this is a piece of junk to me. It could not even perform as a phone for me. I don't know whether I was unlucky to get a faulty set or Nokia just sucks. Firstly, its reception is poor. Other phones are doing well in my room but not this one. The speaker is terrible. Even with a full signal, I could not hear what the other person was talking about. With that, don't even talk about 'smartphone' capability, this phone cannot even perform as a phone i.e to make phone calls! In addition, the phone is very laggy. It takes forever to display photos and messages (gosh I could not take it!). And the QWERTY keyboard is poorly designed. The first row is too close to the screen part that when you are typing, your fingers are obstructed by the other half of the phone.

The only thing I can praise is the feature to customise the desktop with various icons and shortcuts (though I was super pissed that the phone always automatically connected to GPRS when any internet related shortcuts are put on the standby). I exchanged the phone to other model.. I just don't dare to take the risk (after all the bad experiences my friends have with various Nokia phones). So yeah, now I am done with Nokia too although (again I repeat) I don't know whether I was unlucky to get a faulty set.

Sony Ericsson Vivaz Pro
Should I consider this my 4th or 3rd phone?? Hmm... Anyway this replaced the stupid Nokia C6. The same reasoning applies, I need to sms so I need a keyboard since I cannot 'tahan' touch screen. This cost me S$198 (with contract). The camera is 5MP so it is an upgrade from my previous K800i :D For the sake of keyboard, I sacrificed an extra 3MP camera capability (Sony Ericsson Vivaz has no keyboard but it boasts 8MP camera!).

To be honest, other than the camera (well, as expected from Sony, good cameras ^^) , I don't quite like this phone. It is Symbian and guess who made Symbian? Yeah, that sucky Nokia -_-" I hated the menu etc. I owned this phone for less than 6 months and it hang for more times than my 3.5 years old K800i. Thanks to Symbian. The media (photo viewing) load time is fast. And that's all the good thing about it.

So what are my complaints? Firstly, it has no lens cover and it has a poor positioning of the lens. It is unnatural for me to hold it in such a way so as not to touch the lens (lousy deign!). So for normal usages, it is inconvenient! Secondly, its display of portrait and landscape pictures sucks! Too hard to describe. But when you hold the phone in a portrait manner, it will display all the pictures as portrait, even for landscape pictures. Thus you will see only the middle part of the landscape pictures. When you hold the phone in landscape manner, the portrait pictures are 90degrees slanted. Gosh. Terrible. Thirdly, the speakers (referring to songs, not to phone calls) suck. Forthly, the back cover is made of flimsy plastic material. It makes the phone feels cheap.. And it feels that it can snap anytime everytime I take off the back cover. Gosh.. Lastly, the battery kinda sucks. I gotta charge it once every 3 days and I don't go online/wireless/bluetooth etc. Bah.. I had no idea why it has a green light which is always flickering and maybe that sucks the battery! Oh don't forget, my unhappiness about Symbian is in the previous paragraph. Lol.

In all, this phone, at best, is just a phone for me. Make calls, send sms-es, take photos, and that's it. In fact, it is still quite inconvenient for a normal phone since I have to take special care in order not to touch the lens. For alarm, notes, and any other things, ironically I am still using my K800i. I guess that really highlights the difference between FLAGSHIP and non-flagship phones ba.. The company really put effort for flagship phones in a way that they are 'perfect' in every aspect.. Unfortunately, nowadays companies hardly have flagship phones. They just release phones in many types to satisfy wide range of needs and prices bla bla bla..

Therefore, I am not quite satisfied with my current phone. Hence, I wanna get a new phone. Lol.. But I think I learnt my lessons ba. The most important thing for a phone is the convenience to sms and make phone calls. Other things (erm... except camera perhaps LOL) are secondary. So next time I will find something which is convenient to use/hold as a phone for daily usages as the main criteria to buy a phone. Well, at least I am grateful that I insisted on something with a keyboard. I will just die if I chose a phone which is totally touch screen. Haha..

So what's next??
Grr I am emo again. I am just back from Coffee Beans. I am too distracted to my own room that I have to go out if I wanna concentrate to study (or in this case is to prepare for my experiments). It is so ironice. The last time I went there was when I read my FYP articles for the first time. And today I was back there for my FYP again.. Before I emo, I will write about the Holiday Special drink that I bought today. Haha.. It was called Dark Chocolate Orange Ice Blended. The citrus flavour was nice (not too overpowering) but the chocolate was too sweet for me.. I am not a fan.. It tasted more like a melted orange-flavoured chocolate bar than a drink. Haha.. Ok, now comes the emo part.

I am emo because my project seems to be hopeless.. I am in big dilemma. I have planned everything to best that I can do, up to the amount of ingredients. Then I started to get emo as I was contemplating about the amount. If I use too little (to save), I am worried that for subsequent steps, the things would be too little to even be detected or measured. Worse, when I need to repeat the step, or re-do the step with few modifications, I need to waste at least 48hours to re-synthesise the whole stuff. However if I use too much, my materials will not last long. And what if I fail?

It sucks!! I feel very sucky :( Seriously the main thing which inhibit my progress is my limited materials :'( Well time is also limited but that one is less crucial. How am I supposed to work with amount like 0.1 or 0.2 mg?? Even the weighing machine is not up to that level of precision.. At zero-point-something decimal point, the number keeps flickering so there is no way I know the number is due to fluctuation or what..

Oh God.. I can't do it alone.. I need You!! :( But I know You won't help me.. Just like how You did not help me for my exams.. Damn :'( Call it blasphemy or whatever but currently this is what I feel towards Him..

At least I gotta thank Him for the 'enthuasiasm' to plan my experiments (it happened!) and to go early tomorrow (I hope it's gonna happen! Not only for tomorrow but throughout the whole month).

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Air ^o^

I think this is the most uploaded picture in my blog haha..

Aaa~~h I am so ecstatic. After waiting and hunting down the book for YEARS (the book was out in 1999), I ordered the book on ebay and finally it came yesterday! I did not expect it to arrive so quickly so I was so delighted when I checked my mail yesterday.

The book is not perfect. Well considering it is at least 10 years old, I can forgive a bit of imperfections ba. Overall, I rate the condition as 90%. I am still satisfied. The content is fantastic! Really worth all my effort and frustration to get it. Lol.. Worth the price too haha.. There are 104 pages and only the last 8 pages are black and white!! Woohoo!! There are quite a lot of pictures which I never see before, not from the manga illustrations. So it is very exciting. And since the manga is not made into anime, all the pictures are hand-drawn. Pencil, ink, colour pencil, crayon.. OMG T_T Drool... Perhaps a decade ago, computer graphic was still unusual for many mangakas..

The only regrettable thing for me is that the mangaka chose to focus more on Naruse, Sawamura, Sakurai, and Kobayashi. With so many characters in the manga, she could draw more of the other people ma.. Anyway the other people are equally good looking too.. And where are the female characters?? I thought basketball mangas are for guys.. So shouldn't it have more drawings of the females? Haha.. Oh well, since the mangaka is a female, what to do.. But still, I LOVE THE BOOK! Lol..

So happy ^o^ Anyway my next hunt will be Weiss Kreuz books.. I am aiming for 4 books worth >US$100 (inclusive shipping cost). Actually there are still 2 books but I decided not to buy since they are more like manga (black and white pages). I prefer illustration books. And aaah.. that will complete everything from my childhood memories :D

Weiss Kreuz

Friday, November 26, 2010


It is the second day and I have not yet rebounded from my emo and self-pity. One big B- or C+ is coming and that is just gonna ruin my whole university results transcript. I wonder how long I need to forget about this. Sigh.. Sometimes I feel angry, what's the point of all the results so far :( Might as well that I am not doing well from the start.. But haiz putting things into perspective, I think right from the start I am not that smart as a person. I am "smart" rather than smart. Last time, I was "good" because I always hunted for test questions from my friends in other class beforehand lol. Even when a teacher knew about this, I did not care. I did no wrong ma. That was my benefit for having the test later than other people. If the teacher wanted to prevent this, then jolly well change the questions lor. Aaa~h those are my days in Indo. No wonder ever since I came here, I have been doing worse in school. Bleah.. But seriously yesterday paper was the worst T_T That just shows how stupid I am. Cant survive without tips :'(

I watched Harry Potter yesterday. I expected to be disappointed but I did not expect to be THAT disappointed. The movie is the WORST among all Harry Potter movies! I always think that I used to be disappointed because I knew the book. Thus I would be disappointed for things which were left out. But for this one, I read the book 3 years ago and I hardly can recall the story now. That puts me as a non-reader who watched the movie and it was a much worse experience. The action scenes were few. And the things happened to fast before I could catch what going on on screen. The 'vision' scenes came in flashes.. way too quickly for us to know what's going on. Plus the people spoke damn fast in thick UK accent.. Bleah.. And so many unusual names that I could hardly follow. Nightmare! Oh well, the only thing worth seeing is Hermione ba. Haha.. I see that as the guys grow up, they become uglier and wider. Lol.. Only Hermione becomes prettier and slimmer. I wonder whether such person exists in real life: pretty, tall, slim, and smart.. And here is an ugly, short, fat, and stupid boy writing..

Today life went on as usual. I did my laundry and read newspaper. I found out about SITEX (computer exhibition) which is currently running and I wanted to buy a netbook! Lol.. It is very 'easy' to buy netbook. Many have exactly the same specs.. And the price hardly differs.. Looks like I gotta choose based on colour and costumer care experience ba. But oh well, come to think of it, I do not need a netbook that urgently yet. I decided not to buy haha.. That was as quick as the initial urge to buy one :p

I am more inclined to buy an LG flip phone. The price was still 300+ without contract. Ouch.. I could get if for $0 with contract last time. But thanks to my stupid choice of Nokia, I could downgrade to a cheaper phone. Actually nothing fanciful about the phone in terms of specs. I just want to experience a flip phone.. and this one is kinda cute too LOL. I kinda 'hate' my current phone. Because it has no lens cover, I always have to take extra caution in holding it so that I do not touch/smudge/scratch the lens. It's 5MP le! Haha.. I even need a pouch to put it in my pocket. Grr.. So troublesome.. Well the LG also has no lens cover. But since I am not buying it for the camera, who cares about the lens! Lol.. I wonder how many more months to go before it becomes below $100. Only then I will buy haha.. It was released in January for $428.. It was $0 with contract in July. How come I saw it being sold for $350+ in a shop yesterday? Bleah.. Why must the LG shop at Vivo close?!

Cute right? Haha.. Oh well, apparently they come in green and red too but I have never seen them. I would like to have the green one! Lol.. But heck, I will do fine with the blue one! Black looks good but my phones have always been black so it is time for variation ba haha...

And how ironic my life is. It is Thanksgiving Day and I had nothing to be grateful of :'(

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

PR 4103: Research Methodology

Fucked up module..
Fucked up paper..
And it fucked up my honour and my life..

Perhaps the paper was not that hard.. I am the one to blame. I am just too stupid..
Fuck me..

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Dynasty Warriors: Strikeforce

Based loosely on Chinese novel: Romance of the Three Kingdom, choose a hero and pledge your allegiance to Kingdom Shu, Wei, or Wu, to unite ancient China under one rule.
Zhao Yun (in Fury Mode) from the opening cutscene
The opening cutscene is exciting and that is as far as it goes. Throughout the game, it is just normal in-game graphics. Cutscenes are limited to in-between chapters summary. Unfortunately, for each Kingdom, there is only ONE cutscene differing only in narrations for different chapters. And these cutscenes are in sephia, not full color -_-". The only cutscenes worth mentioning are the final cutscenes for each Kingdom where the officers are gathered to celebrate their victory in uniting the 3 Kingdoms. And thank goodness they are colored!
The background looks 'dead'
Many stages share the same backgrounds (eg: city, fortress, swamps, etc) and the colours used are rather dull. The mythical beasts look majestic but they also point out the poor layerings, especially when the character have to climb to the body of the beasts to whack them. The layering issue is worsened with poor camera positioning sometimes which make the enemies or the character we control disappear from our screen. The 'chi' equip also looks akward to me. It is as if the people are wearing huge colorful bracelets and socks.
Character Status Menu with Fury Mode outfit
The only treat for the eyes is the characters status menu. The different outfits do not really matter as often they are just different colour palletes. The Fury mode animation is quite refreshing and detailed in colours though. Other than that, the only positive thing about the graphics would be the weapons. Every single one of them looks different from another and the differences are not just in colours. This includes how Sword A differs from Sword B and Sword C etc. Considering there are many weapon classes (i.e bows, sword, double-handed sword, staff, pike, fans, etc) and many weapons within each class, I find it refreshing to see various weapons.

I had fun playing the Dynasty Warriors GBA version (I can't recall the exact title) and I am utterly disappointed with this game. The developer decided to remove the strategy part of the game and replace it with the 'multiplayer' and 'fury' component. Since I am solo-ing most of the time, this game becomes purely a hack and slash game. It becomes very brain-less, and it has a HUGE tendency to get boring very fast. I no longer get the feeling of Kingdom vs Kingdom or Army vs Army kind of fights as it becomes one person to fight all the enemies.

All the missions are very linear. For each mission, there is 1 main objective to clear the mission, and there maybe 1 or 2 side objectives to get extra cash. Sometimes the side objectives are not related to the story at all. It can be as lame as "kill a butterfly". The maps are rather small and simple. Boring...

The AI for the enemies is also quite dumb. Most of them just stand stationary waiting for the player to kill them. They are quite easy to kill or in fact, players can choose to skip them altogether. Unfortunately, the bosses are meant for multiplayer. It is ridiculously hard to solo them (the good  news is: it is still POSSIBLE to beat the game by solo-ing). That makes level grinding compulsory and makes the whole game quite stressful to be played alone. Even with hours of grinding and leveling, some of the bosses are still too hard. And worse, some stages have multiple bosses.
Imagine being gang-banged by Phoenix, Cao Pi, Cao Ren, Zhang Liao, and Xu Huang
There is a nice attempt to put the city upgrade feature. Now weapons, items, orbs, chi, are obtained from the city (sounds more like RPG eh?). During the missions, players just collect money and materials to assemble equipments. The city is upgraded at certain rate depends on the officers (in terms of officer cards) that player collects throughout. However, the methods of collecting cards and upgrading the city are too slow. It can be easily abused by starting and quitting missions repeatedly (after starting and quitting a mission, the city will gain "experience" and there is a chance of meeting a new officer who gives officer cards when we return to the city). To me, it is a nice feature turned ugly..

There is also a nice attempt to costumise the equipments with orbs and chi.  Most of them are effectively useless. Only towards the end that the higher level chi powers are more interesting and useful. Unfortunately, there are a few Chi combinations which effectively makes the character immortal. With these few combinations, the game becomes very easy. Even those hardcore bosses become a piece of cake. This takes out the challenge of the game and why bother offering so many things while there are a few sure-win combinations that everyone will use

Each character has 1 main and 1 subweapon. Only the subweapon is customisable to any weapon types. The weapon system is supposedly pretty good with 'vulnerability' system. For example, bows and tech are good  (5 stars) against wizards but weak (1 star) towards machines, staff is good (5 stars) against heavy machines, while spear is relatively good (3 stars) against everything, etc. Unfortunately, only the wizards are annoying enough to make bow or tech a necessity. Equip spear + bow/tech will ensure a pretty easy gameplay. This makes all the attempt for customisation useless altogether. For each weapon type, there is a separate speciality point system. The system is a failure because for the type of weapon that we use, a random  (rather than based on frequency of usage of that weapon) 1 to 3 speciality points are awarded after every completed mission. Grinding for weapon point is even more tedious and time consuming than grinding level -_-"

Most characters share the same movesets, particularly because the movesets are based on the weapons. As the specialty for one weapon goes up, the moveset evolves with more hits and better combos.  Thank goodness the combos are fluid, elegant, easy to execute, and enjoyable to perform. Perhaps the combo is the only thing which salvage the gameplay of this game.

Another good thing is the movesets for different weapon types are vastly different. It makes the game less dull and more challenging. For example: using bow normal attack cannot cause the enemy to fall/fly/etc. The enemy still can attack while  being shot with arrows. Thus using bow poses a challenge to constantly moving to avoid enemies attack. In contrast, other weapon types can stagger, knock down enemies, etc, basically disabling them from attacking so we can just happily whack them. Some weapons can cover your backside too while some are only useful for frontal attacks.

The collectibles are lame since there is no way a player can have 100% completion using 1 save file. So what is the point of showing a percentage? Seriously! I think this is plain stupid.

To add on players agony, the 6th chapter is a bonus chapter. In this chapter, we get to play ALL missions (right from chapter 1) with a 5 star difficulty. Wow.. how "exciting" is that? I am being sarcastic here!! Haha.. By the time you reach this part, your character will be too strong to notice any difference between 1/2 star vs 5 star mission. You will be too sick of the game to even bother trying as well. :p

What make this game different from other Dynasty Warriors games are Multiplayer and Fury Mode. To be honest, there is nothing spectacular with Multiplayer. I agree that multiplayer is fun but any game is fun when played with other people right? Some people call Fury Mode as "super saiyan mode". Other than the cosmetic issues, I also see nothing special in this feature. The character will be stronger for a shortwhile but the extra boost makes no difference. The normal enemies are too weak (no need to activate the Fury mode to beat them) while the bosses are still too difficult to solo even in Fury mode. Seriously, no big deal with the Fury mode.
Fury Mode adds more colour to the otherwise dull background
Multiplayer Mode makes it more 'war-like' with more people fighting
There is too much exaggeration that makes me wanna puke. Come on, if it is based (albeit LOOSELY) on ancient history, can't we be a bit more realistic here? I don't think in ancient times there were bladecarts, which shoot electric sparks, flying robots which shoot beams, giant monsters, etc. These are too over the top for me. And just to quote someone's comment on youtube: China would already be destroyed if these things were present in those times.

Bi Xie - Lu Bu's giant pet tiger
Wei's Guardian - Phoenix
No idea who/what the hell this Tian Lu is
This will depend on how you wanna the view the game. If you just wanna have fun and play a hack and slash game, I guess this game can just be replayed for as long as you wish.

But if you wanna play it as a strategy or RPG, then this game has no replayability value. It does not matter which character you pick since most share the same movesets. The movesets are based on the equipments rather than the characters. Anyway, just make sure you have a spear/bow/tech + wood element + chi combination which makes you invincible and that's it! I doubt you even wanna clear the game because the storyline is kinda expected with your Kingdom will reign over China eventually.

The first 2 chapters are the same for all 3 Kingdoms. It is about the Yellow Turban and Dong Zhuo. The subsequent chapters differ with how the each Kingdom acquired their territories and the officers which eventually join them. The last few chapters are purely fictional  (since in the real thing, all 3 Kingdoms were no more. Sima Yi united the whole thing under Jin Dynasty) on how your Kingdom beat the other 2 Kingdoms. Nothing special but I like the parts where they show how each character joins their respective Kingdoms. But even this is ruined by the fact that we can choose any character at the start even before missions where they historically join the Kingdom. Worse, we need to fight 'ourselves' during the missions. I am speechless..

The only thing that make me play this game is the hack and slash aspect to channel away my stress. After all, the battle system is really damn good. It is comparable to a fighting game, perhaps even better than some fighting games. The multi hit combos can be executed smoothly.. Switching weapons in the middle of combos is even possible. Add in the jumps (or double jump and even triple jump), dash, fly, etc and your character can literally dance and go on an endless rampage in the battlefield. Lol.

But then, there are nicer (nicer in the sense of a more whole-some gaming experience) hack and slash games out there ^^ so seriously, why bother about this game? :)

Saturday, November 20, 2010

PR 4101: Pharmacotherapy II

It is now 5 hours after the paper and I had my afternoon nap. I still can't help myself from feeling tired, emo, and sad over the paper. I ran out of luck and did not spot the right topic for the writing parts so I am pretty much doomed.

The MCQs are very lengthy. 1 minute for 1 question is definitely not enough. Overall, I felt okay about the MCQ. But seriously, I don't know whether the questions are just factual or they are tricky. If they are tricky, then most likely I have fallen to the traps for many times. Because I actually did not find many tricky questions.

SOAP was terrible. At the start, when I read the first line, I was relieved to see "bla bla bla is being treated for heart failure". But when I flipped to the instruction, I nearly fainted, the SOAP case was thrombosis omg!! Grr.. I totally did not expect that! Anyway my mind just went blank and wrote whatever crap that I could throw.

The short answer section was 50:50. The first question about antimicrobial resistance was ok for me. I actually spent pretty much time trying to memorise those 3 slides. Unfortunately, I am just too stupid. I could only recall the first slide.. Sigh.. For the rest, I just wrote Beta Lactams for everything sigh.. The second question killed me -_-" I had no idea what to write. I even forgot the proper term "proactive"' and "reactive" cycling. Well, those terms came to my mind but I was not sure whether it was "proactive/reactive" or "prospective/restrospective". So I left them out at all. And by the handwriting, I think the lecturer can tell that I was just crapping. So much different from my answer for the first question.

Anyway I hate that particular lecturer la. I am so pissed that he keeps asking stupid questions.. Last time he asked about the various bacteria.. I tried to memorise them well now and guess what this time he threw in VIRUSES. So yeah I died again :( And the best is yet to be.. From 6 slides, now he expects me to write 30mins worth of essay. Oh yeah -_-"

In conclusion, it is a goner for me.. I am officially one class down now. A part of me feels happy and relieved actually. Since with that, I am no longer in borderline. It is unlikely to fall to 2nd lower so no need to be stressed over studies anymore. Another part of me feels sad.. All the effort and stress for the past years just goes to a waste T_T And why bother doing FYP anymore.. Haiz...

Thursday, November 18, 2010

A study week full of distraction

The trailer for BOTH parts. I am sure the Part 1 is not this exciting :p

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 came out today! Aaah.. I was already getting distracted from few days ago from the trailer. Haha.. Based on my previous experiences with every Harry Potter movie, the trailers always looked awesome but I came out disappointed out of the movie hall. Still, WHO CARES?? I still wanna watch! I am very sad that Lido Shaw House (my favourite cinema) is closed for renovation. Other cinemas are not as good as Lido. Where else can I enjoy a large, cold, empty, digital, and relatively queue-free cinemal hall? I tried to check out other cinemas thru the net but mostly they are small halls and for the first few days, most of the seats were sold out. Perhaps that is a good thing. At least I am not that distracted to watch (since I cannot get a seat even if I want to lol). Anyway from the trailer alone, I have forgotten a lot about the story. Why is there a huge dragon? Haha.. Maybe I should read the book again :D Thank God my book is in Indo.. If it is with me here, oooh... Ah, one last thing, I think the music in the trailer is GREAT!

The weather has been kind lately. In fact, it is sleep inducing. I don't know why but I keep feeling tired.. and unmotivated. Even though I have more than enough sleep daily, I still can't help but to feel tired, especially when I start to read notes. Bleah.. I can just read my notes for 30 mins and I get very sleepy. When I decided to take a short break (playing games), my eyes will suddenly open. The best part is my short break is LONGER than my study time -__-"

Oh well, I am too tired to write more things.. I still wanna complain about lots of things.. my ugly hair.. my pimples.. my fat.. and my project.. T_T

Monday, November 15, 2010

Anime Festival Asia (AFAX)

I was not too eager or excited to attend the event as I don't really like cosplay and I don't want to see real humans ruin my 2D imaginations :p It was more of curiosity that drove me to go since this was my first time attending this kind of anime event. The entrance fee was $8. Add another $7 for the stage access. The event list was pretty ambiguous so I was not too eager for the other events too. In the evening, there was a concert and the ticket started with $55 for standing audience. I was not bothered about it because I thought the singers were not famous. Actually the singers were quite popular le lol...

To be frank, I was pretty disappointed. The exhibition hall was quite 'empty' meaning that there were not that many people rent the space. Considering that I hardly have time to follow the latest anime, I expected that there would be not many things I would find interesting and I would go home empty handed. When I attended this kind of event, I would always want to come back with something le :( In the end I only bought $8 worth of Saint Seiya Zodiac "coins". I was so happy.. but when I came back to open the thing, they are actually not COINS. They are just some lame plastic stuff... I don't even know what it is meant to be or how I can display it. Grr...
The entrance ticket and the 'wrist band' for stage access
The sign for Cancer is 69? How does 69 represent a crab? Haha..
There was one cute cat hat which I wanted to buy. I decided to look around for more interesting thing. There was nothing else interesting and when I returned to the cat hat shop, it was all gone :( Bleah. 

Below are some interesting displays that I took photos :)
Chopper. My friend's favourite!
Cool car with the AFA mascot

Saint Seiya Collection. $80+ per piece. Would love to have them all if I also can get the display case and diorama
More Saint Seiya stuff to drool on
Let's talk about cosplay. Honestly I am not a fan of cosplay but I have to applaud these "crazy" people for really putting so much effort for their hobbies. "Crazy" in a good way because the things which they created really made those props during Rag day seem trivial. I surprisingly find the cosplay competition quite entertaining to watch. Unfortunately, the audience was not really 'high' to spice up the atmospehere. Anyway I think it is very cool for these people to be able to go overseas, compete and win competitions etc just from their hobbies. Not to mention that many of them were very confident in posing and acting as their characters also up to the point of letting strangers even took photo of them. That was amazing!

My stand is still: some things are better left to imagination. Haha that's why I think my favourite cosplayers were the Red and Green Power Rangers. Lol.. It was because they wore a mask.. But after I saw that they got a bit of flab and when they turned around, the underwear mark was seen, it was quite disgusting and ruined my childhood memories haha

But the most shocking discovery today was that there were many guys cosplaying as FEMALES! They wore dress, wig, fake boobs etc, but they forgot one thing: their face! Gosh.. Seriously although there is term "crossplay" to describe cosplaying of character of an opposite gender, to me guys dressing as girls will always be CROSS-DRESS! Bleah.. There were quite a lot of them that by the end of the day, before saying this girl is chio or not, I would be more careful. Never know that they would be guys LOL.. Now I honestly doubt my ability to distinguish guys and girls hahaha...

In conclusion, I have answered my curiosity. Just some pointers for this kind of events in the future:
1) Come in the morning since there would be less crowd. You will have more chance to take photos and to shop. I was surprised that by lunch hour, many things were already sold out :( including the stuff I wanted haiz
2) Act like tourist. Lol! Just be thick skinned and take photos of the things you like
3) Don't think too much. When you see something nice, just buy before they are sold out.
4) Don't wear too nice unless you are cosplaying.

The last one is very personal. I still have 3 vests from Korea that I had no chance to wear so I decided to wear today. I bumped into 3 friends there and the first thing they asked me was "Are you cosplaying?". I was like -_- I thought I was wearing something normal. Haha.. Oh well actually on the way out, I saw someone wearing something like I wore, but he wore blond spiky wig ba haha..

Overall it was a pretty interesting day. For sure, I don't expect that there are that many otakus here. I think it's the event organisers who earned the most from the entrance fee. But the way these fans bought the souvenirs were also rather scary. And in the end, I still cannot decide, which is crazier: screaming fans over some boybands or cosplayers??

The big question is: Will be back next year or for similar event? Lol to be honest, the pulling factor for me to attend is the merchandise. Unfortunately, since I hardly have the time to follow the latest manga and anime, there would not be anything interesting for me :( So it will depend on my mood :p
I don't normally put my pictures here but well, it's a bonus for today :p