Advent is coming

I have been wasting my time and my life for Genshin Impact. Previously I complained because the game kept crashing on my iPad. After the game update a few weeks ago, it becomes more stable and I am able to play. I know it is a waste of time if I am spending too much on a game but it is difficult not to get hooked initially when the game still feels fresh and exciting.

I finally went to attend Mass at church last weekend. Since I am already going out for work and for gym, there is no reason of being worried of COVID anymore. Anyway my main reason for finally going is that the church is gradually allowing more people to attend which means we are back in the main church and not at the chapel anymore. It is still 1 weekend mass per month so I chose last Sunday to coincide with the Feast of Christ the King which marks the closure of a liturgical year.

I woke up at 530am and reached the church at around 650am. It was still kinda rushed with the social distancing at the entry. I felt kinda irritated with people who did not know how to queue properly. Seriously what was the rush with seats guaranteed and assigned anyway. I think all the available slots were taken which was a good thing. I have signed up for December and the good thing about me liking 7am slot is that it is the least popular slot. 9am and 11am are mostly full while the 5pm only has few seats left. 7am still has 50 over slots hehe... Unfortunately, all the slots for penitential service are already fully booked when I checked last night.

The Devil does not like me to good works and I have been feeling very shitty this past week. I was asked to write a 400-word article for Landings and last weekend was ruined because of that. I woke up at 630am on Saturday with the intention of completing the writing. I had writer's block and after 12 hours, I was only halfway through. Sigh.. Ironically, it is always easy to just type long rubbish blog post like this. Haha.. I continued on Sunday and 'die die' I wanted to finish it as I did not want to prolong my misery.

I am supposed to attach a picture that depicts my faith and the problem is I don't take photos at places of worship. Even all my travelling photos are usually taken outside a church building and not inside. To capture the majesty of the building, usually I am small in the photo which is not suitable for this current purpose. I decided with a photo with a statue of Jesus outside Rue du Bac. That is the most acceptable although I still think it is quite lousy. The one with both me and Jesus' face facing the camera is shadowy as we were there at late afternoon. So no choice but to choose the one to 'avoid' the shadow and Jesus' face is not facing the camera :( All this shit always happened just like previously when preparing for faith story.

At work, I am feeling more and more irritated with few bitches. I have decided that I will say something for the upcoming year end appraisal. Hehe.. Previously I did not say anything in mid year but things do not improve. The evil part of me is actually saying: Hey bitch, you want to play gutter politics, I am going to show you how to really play dirty. No point saying during mid year since it will not change anything but when I fire my salvo for year end, there is higher chance that this will affect your bonus.

Yesterday this crazy bitch went bonkers after I asked one innocent question in the group chat. She kept on and on and then my boss sort of  'defended' me even though I did not say anything further and I also did not message my boss privately. Hehe... Seriously I don't know what happen with this bitch as last year she was not like this. I suspect she may be jealous of me because of my promotion this year as that is the only thing that changed as compared to last year. Anyway it is going to be easy to 'tear her down' as when usually she goes bonkers, she makes herself looks stupid and unprofessional on her own. When something is already 'bad', it is quite easy to make it 'terrible'.

By the way, this is a different bitch from the one I wrote previously. I also received good update for this bitch yesterday. Higher management has decided that the issue is indeed for the bitch's team to handle, not mine. See la, want to taichi, taichi to wrong person, now still end up as yours. Aaah.. revenge is sweeter when it is done by karma and I am not even involved in anything that befalls on these two bitches.

I failed my diet plan for November completely. Tomorrow is the start of Advent and this time for real, I am going to stick through with no junk food, no potato chips, no fast food, no bubble tea, and less food delivery. To ensure this plan does not fall through, I forced myself to finish whatever I have at home this week until I am having sore throat. Phew... Anyway the only thing I am not able to stop is the bottled sweet drinks after lunch. Everytime I skip, I always feel very weak and hungry at around 5pm and it will make me skip gym or ordering delivery for dinner. So it is more reasonable to spend the calories for a bottle of drink than ending up overeating and not exercising.

Now I am also starting to pray the Chaplet of St Michael (which is also called as the Rosary of the Angels). I try to do it daily but I have failed in the past 2 days because I was too tired of gaming. Jeez. Personally, my priority is still my daily rosary so it is going to be sometime before I can pray both diligently everyday. I feel the prayer in Chaplet of St Michael is petitionary which complements my daily Rosary which is more like a contemplation. Honestly I am more and more distracted with my own personal prayer.  Gone is my Consciousness Examen that I promised early last year.

Just to keep in memory the awkwardness from the very first experience of praying the Chaplet: I thought the Chaplet beads are the same as the Rosary beads meaning there is no 'correct' side to start the circle. I was wrong haha.. The Rosary is symmetrical with 10 small beads and 1 large bead from whichever side. There is no 'first' large bead as the first Our Father is using the center bead. The Chaplet of St Michael that I have, however, starts with 1 large bead (after the center bead) + 3 small beads. Thus the other side ends with 3 small beads. Thus the chaplet is no symmetrical. I started from the wrong side during my first try and I was finding the order kinda awkward. Lol.

Continue binging

I continue to mess up with my diet plan. I had this 6 mini burger set on Sunday. The size is smaller than expected but the whole thing is still definitely bigger than what I normally have for lunch. I did not how it happened but I ended up seeing 1-for-1 KFC popcorn chicken in the app. I had that for dinner and I bought it again for lunch today. It was my first time going to Thomson Plaza for lunch since the start of working from home and it was all just for KFC. I was punished for that with the super heavy rain and numerous water puddles thanks to the ongoing construction work around Thomson Plaza. I pre-ordered through the app so I had no choice but to go and collect despite the rain. Sigh.. I also bought and finished two bags of Kettle's potato chips. I think this will be the end for all this rubbish eating for now because now I feel quite sick of them thanks to my indiscriminate eating for the past 3 days.

The weather has been wonky recently. I usually enjoy the rain but since the Doraemon disaster, I feel quite irritated with the unpredictable rain pattern. I worry if the next time I go, it will be raining and I miss the chance again. It aggravates my moodiness and now I feel like quitting work. Previously during the continuous working from home, I sort of enjoy working from home. Now with the alternating schedule, I end up hating both working from office and from home. Haiz.. God please call me home soon so that all this shitty life is over for me.

Ruined plans

This week turned to be a complete opposite of what I set to do. I ended up eating one pack of potato chips every single day and I wrapped up the week with McD for lunch yesterday. I also added the Hershey's Sundae which is currently in the menu and I also bought instant noodles for dinner. There is no more excuse to repeat the same failings for this coming week onwards. I received an encouragement that my working clothes looked oversized which means my weight loss has been successful. Sadly instead of making me more eager to continue with the weight loss, I lowered my guard this week.

The rain completely ruined my plan to take photos with Doraemon today. It was raining since I woke up at 630am. The rain got lighter and the sun was out that I took a gamble to still go in the hope of the rain stopping by the time I reached National Museum of Singapore. Instead of reaching at 10am as planned, I reached 15 minutes later and there were already quite a lot of people there. Haiz I thought Doraemon would not be that popular. Not too long after that, it started to drizzle again and they closed the area with Doraemon at the grass patch. I decided to wait it out by looking at other things inside the museum but the rain did not stop. Doraemon and I always do not go together with rain. It was also raining when I went to find Doraemon at Takaoka last year. At least the rain stopped by the time I reached the park and I managed to take photos without umbrella and all that.

No choice but to return on another day. I ask my friend to accompany again sometime on a weekday. I am not a fan of Doraemon. I suppose because of covid and the feeling of being cooped up at home for so long make this Doraemon exhibition more exciting than usual. I especially cut my hair earlier than usual this week so that I do not look too ugly in photos today. I have to cut again next month since it is going to be ugly again. Sian.. I also wasted one pitta mask today. I wore it so that I did not look too ugly in case I could not take off the mask if there were a lot of people.

Talking about Pitta mask, this mask is indeed not meant for health purpose. After getting used to wearing 3-ply medical masks almost daily for the past few months, pitta mask does not actually press on the nose that much. It is much easier to breathe although my glasses will still fog. I remember when I wore it at Disneyland last year to protect my face from the winter air, I felt it was quite difficult to breathe. Pitta mask also does not 'suffocate' the mouth so it is quite okay to put it on after food. Yesterday I was so irritated after the McD lunch as I had to put on my mask before walking to the sink to wash my mouth and I felt that it was contaminating the mask.

On the way back, I dropped by at Robinsons in Raffles City. The closing down sale is a fake news. 5%-20% off is like normal sale. I thought I would 'support' by buying some underwears, which I need, but with only 5%-10%, I think it is better for me to wait for 11.11 or Christmas sale elsewhere.

False anticipation

I am not a big fan and I could not be bothered about A380 restaurant by Singapore Airlines as much as those who waited past midnight to compete for the reservation. All were sold out within less than half an hour and SIA added a second weekend. I still did not bother. Last week was the first weekend and after reading the reviews, one of the blogs I follow wrote that there were still limited spaces available, mostly single seats. That got me excited but alas, it was just a 'waiting list' and in the end, I was not contacted. Huhuhu T_T If it is just food for $53.50, I could easily pass but after reading the blogs, I got excited with the pre-boarding activity as there is a caricature draw. I even planned for my 'heritage' attire so that I could get a free umbrella. Haiz.. Oh well it did not happen. What made me less emo is to know that this weekend ended up fully booked as well. I feel a bit lazy if there are so many people.

The monthly spending on food and grocery serves as a proxy of my weight. My food expenses for October is the highest since May. That is worrying because in May, I was still still ordering lunch delivery. I stopped my Deliveroo Plus in June and since then I rarely ordered food delivery anymore. My grocery expenses for October is as high as July when I was still buying Yakult to help with my bowel movement. I already stop that and I no longer buy red dragonfruits after the price increase which means that the spending is mostly caused by potato chips and those bottled drinks.

I am very happy that I managed to resist the gluttony temptation in these past few days with the excuse to 'celebrate' my anniversary of coming here. With October just ended and Christmas is just around the corner, it is time to renew my diet commitment: to avoid bubble tea, potato chips, bottle drinks and fast food and to cut down on food delivery. Yesterday I managed to resist bubble tea for lunch but I was so hungry and wanted to Grab for dinner. Luckily because of the bad weather, the options from Grab were limited and I ended up not ordering. Today, however, was not that successful. I went out today so I had a burger from Monster Curry. I usually avoid Monster Curry since their serving size is too big for me but this burger is a new menu. I finished my lunch at around 12pm and yet I was hungry again at around 4pm. I ate the last cup of instant noodles in my room and I am now hungry again for dinner. I have a $4 off voucher in Grab which has been tempting me since yesterday so I just decided for once and for all to just use it tonight for dinner. I hope this is going to get rid of the temptation to order any delivery just to make use of vouchers subsequently.

I went out to Suntec to collect my Singapore Mint orders. I realised that I have not been past Takashimaya leisurely for almost a year after realising that Decathlon now exists in Centrepoint. Last year when I was looking for my ski warm attire at Decathlon, there was no Centrepoint branch yet. I also just knew that Marina Mandarin Hotel has been re-branded to Parkroyal now. Wow..

For the ongoing Doraemon Time Travelling Adventure Exhibition at the National Museum of Singapore, I was thinking of getting a Doraemon-themed t-shirt from Uniqlo. I did not buy in the end as the price is $19.90 for Doraemon line.  Wew -_-" That is 1/3x more expensive than the Disney line or the manga line while I am not really a fan of Doraemon.

I thought I could see the Doraemon on the bus on my way to Suntec. I mistook Singapore Arts Museum (the one opposite Cathedral) as National Museum of Singapore which turns out to be the one near YMCA. I ended up calling the museum to ask if I have to wait until the official opening hours to take photos with the Doraemon statues at the field outside the museum. The person answering was a rude uncle. It looks like I have to pray that I will be lucky with both the weather and the crowd as I cannot go early :( The rude bastard said there would be security guard stopping people from entering before the opening hours. Oh well at least I got my answer.

Today happens to be the All Saints Day. It was a good thing that I was busy in the morning as the usual Sunday Mass livecast was having some technical problems. The video was still not up when I was going to watch at around 3pm. Thus I ended up watching the Mass by Church of St Mary of the Angels. That was my first time since I have been only following the Mass from the Cathedral. The duration is shorter (~40 minutes) but I find the pace quite fast. I prefer the slower pace of the Cathedral but I guess when I am pressed for time, I have an alternative.

Lastly, I finally decided to register for physical Mass attendance. I think it is no longer acceptable to use an excuse of trying to avoid crowd as I am already going to gym, going to Orchard and going to office as close as usual already. Seeing that the 7am Sunday Mass will be at the main church makes me even happier. Hehe.. Each person is still limited to one weekend Mass per month so just nice to choose a 'special' Sunday which is the feast of the Christ the King which marks the end of Church calendar. Christmas is in December so let's see how the arrangement will be for next month. Meanwhile, I am feeling damn sian as tomorrow is my turn to report to office again. Bleah..

18 years of homelessness

I celebrated this miserable day simply this year with only a bag of cassava chips and a cup of bubble tea. Normally I would go for something more extravagant like expensive restaurant or ice cream but I decided to just settle with bubble tea this year since I really do not want to go beyond 60kg.

Honestly, I feel quite different this year. I do not think I am as emo as in other years. Perhaps I am slowly accepting to this life. It does not matter whether it is in a positive sense (i.e. God's way) or in a negative sense (i.e. I am tired of fighting anymore). Another reason could be the aftermath of the eRetreat over the weekend and the end of Landings run yesterday. In fact, my group had an online rosary just now. My past self would just come up with an excuse so that we would have it on another day as I just would like to drown myself in sorrows on 28 October. Anyway, I did not really feel good with a group rosary and I prefer to have a private time when I am praying.

Yesterday was the conclusion of the Landings run and the concluding sharing reminded me that I am not a junk. I should not be too harsh with myself and learn to look at things from God's perspective. I am meant to have this current life, with all the goods and the bads. I just come to realise that the message in my perpetual calendar for 27 October reads: May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith. What an apt message since I always associate 28 October as a day when my life turned to shit 18 years ago. I only realised about this coincidence now since in previous years, I am not diligent in reading the perpetual calendar daily.

One interesting thing was after my visual rosary, some of my group members thought I was very good with prayers or leading prayers. Ooops... Leading prayer is my big weakness since I am never really taught on how to pray. Sometimes I also think in my native language when I pray so saying a proper prayer in English is very awkward for me. Well it was good to clear the misunderstanding as it meant to give credits to the deserving Ones. The credits obviously go to God and Mother Mary. With tonnes of rosary videos in Youtube, it is divine providence that I could find the one that I used in the end and others found the images and music in that video powerful.

Currently what makes me emo is my right back pain. Huhuhu... I did swings for the very first time on Monday and I was worried if I did something wrong as my back and the back of my thighs felt more sore than usual. Today what I feel with my back is pain. Bleah.. It reminds me of the back pain that required physiotherapy previously. Maybe something is indeed injured there since a few years ago and now it happens again at the same spot. I hope it gets better tonight and I am already prepared to skip gym tomorrow if the pain still persists.

Anyway looking back at my old posts, I am quite surprised to realise that I actually did not post emo stuff on 28 October every year. I thought it would be like end of year review or birthday post that I will remember not to skip. Haha.. Maybe it is true that I am getting numb and already sort of accept this life as it is.

Relationshits

Politicking at work is normal and expected. But at least if you want to do it, do it with more class instead of some gutter politics. I was very pissed last week with one of my colleagues from another team. Firstly, the issue is not really something within the control of my team and secondly I am not in charge. The bitch was just using my name just because she did not dare to use my boss' name. What irritated me even more that she usually complains about how her subordinates are lazy and like to taichi stuff and yet now she is doing the same thing. What a hypocrite.

Instead of retaliating in the same way, moving forward I will show her how to play politics with class. Previously she would use me as a bridge if she needed something from my boss but she did not dare to approach directly. I would not entertain her anymore when she has such issues. I usually try to settle things 'behind the screen' as much as possible, especially when there is a problem, so as not to embarrass the culprits. Next time if it involves her or her team, I will just skip that and go directly to the group email which includes her boss. After all, in our common tasks, usually her team is the one causing the problem. So in all, it is her loss since usually her tasks and teams are the one having more problems and then will require help or input from my team.

Leaving this bitch aside, something interesting from my old place poped out again last year. My godma forwarded me a screenshot of my old photo (taken for World Pharmacists Day a few years ago) in a recruitment advertisement. I was not even aware that the photo was used for this purpose as I only knew that the photo is still being used in the 'About' page of the corporate Facebook page. I find the tagline very hilarious: Make a positive move. The word positive and me do not go hand in hand. Haha.. I joke with my friends that this screenshot is a perfect meme material to beware of scam because the positive move is actually moving out of that company. Lol.

Something related to my previous post that I did not write then is another factor that sort of spoiled my mood for the weekend retreat. I decided to block my mum on Whatsapp on Saturday morning. I have been ignoring her for the past one month with the hope that she would speak to my sisters when there are issues at home instead of running away from the problems and texting me while there is nothing I can do. Unfortunately, things do not change and I am just fed up with her repeating words about my dad (Mum, please, dad is gone. Thinking of him is not going to help with anything) and 'Do you love me? Do you care?' (Excuse me, do you even love/care for me? You are the one leaving me homeless for so long.) I know this is so un-Christ-like but I am just running out of the capacity to love and care about others.

It suddenly dawns upon me that it is end October and it is not a surprise that my mood is getting worse recently. In fact, tomorrow will be the 18th year of my homelessness. Bleah.. Clearly I have not gotten over it :'(

Hectic, disastrous, tiring weeks

The past two weeks have been hectic and irritating for me. Two weeks ago was the week that I had to return to office and I found it very tiring because of the need to wake up very early. The commuting time is really a waste of time. Surprisingly that was also the week that I went to gym for 5 sessions. Something that never happened for so long. The Friday of that week was particularly spoiling my mood. Firstly, I received an email from my Thai mail forwarder that the box set I pre-ordered since March was finally ready for shipping. I was pissed because they did not do a proper bookkeeping and initially wanted to charge me for shipping fee and service fee again. Although it was finally settled after a few emails, the experience got me quite worked up. Anyway I will not be using them anymore since I just found out a few weeks ago that vPost also has a service in Thailand now.

My photobooks from photobook worldwide also arrived and I was initially very excited. Sadly they arrived in a trashed condition. I have not really scrutinised if the quality of the print is much better now as I was so pissed that that they 'saved' on shipping which was the cause of the damaged condition by forcing two books into one shipping envelope. I asked for a refund but they said they would reprint and resend. The replacements should arrive sometime next week and I shall see how before giving an updated review as compared to the last time I ordered from them few years ago.

The inability to hold my tongue made me suffer for half of this week. Every time I buy the kakiage from Teppei Shokudo, I will get gastric and yet I always cannot resist. I had it for lunch on last Sunday and despite taking omeprazole before bed, the pain woke me up at around 3am for me to take antacid. I think my hernia thingy also contributed because otherwise the pain would not last until 3 days despite medicines. Bleah.. As a result, I skipped gym for 3 days and I also Grabbed on Tuesday.

Wednesday was another overeating days as my Landings group asked for a meet up before the retreat. Ironically, we ended up eating at the Grumpy Bear which I am quite bored of. Haha.. That was one of my frequently ordered Deliveroo at the peak of the circuit breaker. Honestly without the 30% off, the original prices are too expensive. Even in the restaurant, we ordered the bundled for 5 and that kind of thing.

I had the first ever eRetreat experience this weekend which I think was quite disastrous too. I was so tired on Friday night that I just KO-ed before 11pm. As a result I woke up at 5+ on Saturday morning. I did not want to sleep again as I was scared that I would overslept. I was so hungry too and that was how I ended up Grabbing McD breakfast. Sigh.. All the overeating this week cost me almost $100 and I already gained 3kg since the week I had to return to office. I feel so shitty since all the effort to lose weight and cut down on food for so long just got busted that way.

Anyway back to the eRetreat, I kept feeling distracted. There was even someone knocking for survey and despite saying that I was in the middle of a meeting, he still tried to small talk. He even asked if I had any drinks. Gosh.. I happened not to have any since I just finished the stock in my fridge. Suddenly I remembered the Dasani from my McD breakfast and he did not mind water so that went to him.

The eRetreat was the best that it could be since it was a virtual. It was no fault of the organisers of the distractions I faced. It is just that over all, I did not feel that I really retreated from my normal life to be able to focus. It did not help that I felt irritated with myself. I failed my promise of daily rosary yesterday. I was chionging a drama and I was left to pray at 1115pm. I fell asleep after 2 decades and I woke up past midnight. I was like: fuck it and went to sleep already. I know that there is nothing wrong and it is not a sin or what but I just feel angry and irritated with myself to break my own promise. I hope it is a lesson for me to prioritise my daily rosary in order not to break my own promise as when I am busy, I tend to leave it until past 11pm as the last thing I do before the day ends.

I kinda like series which have inter-connected characters and split to few parts with each part focusing on few characters. This approach feels better than combining everything into one part with all the characters.  The series I was chiong-ing yesterday was quite special for me. I finished the first part last week and that was the part with the high school students. This next part is more mature as the characters are not studying anymore. I am very surprised that I think this part is better since usually I am a sucker for high school stories. Not to mention that there are touching parts that made me cry. Now I am quite excited to watch the third part which will focus on a married couple. Although I read the reviews that this part is quite boring, I will give it a chance.

That's all for tonight. I actually still want to rant about work with what happened last week but perhaps that will be for another post on another day.

Affirmation

Resting too long for gym will eventually turns into laziness. I had to drag my feet yesterday to return to gym because I had been resting since Sunday. That turned to be a blessing in disguise as I unexpectedly bumped into my ex-staff when I was shopping at FairPrice after gym. It was nice that we still recognised each other just from the eyes and forehead since we were still wearing mask. We ended up having around 15 minutes of catching up in the instant noodles alley. I actually told myself after last Sunday that I would stop eating instant noodles. Normally that means I would not even go to the instant noodles section but somehow yesterday I decided to do so.

I honestly cannot bother and am not interested with my old workplace already. However, I got snippets which made me very happy with where I am now while my ex-colleagues are still dealing with the same old shit. Huehehe... What really struck me was when she said that she hoped I would be back as time might just be as bad as when I was still around but at least she found it more enjoyable. For me, that was an affirmation that regardless of what shit my bosses were saying about me, at least my decision that welfare of my staff came first was appreciated by them. After all, that was my priority back then instead of bootlicking just to win favour from bosses (which would not happen anyway) and pushing things top down to the ground staff.

I messaged my ex-student who then became my ex-colleague about my unexpected encounter and I was rewarded with another snippet. She was sharing how a new trainee would be leaving for a greener pasture and another trainee who CMI. I never recruited CMI people and the staff I hired back then were all good catches. People were criticising me back then why I was so slow in recruiting and now they should learn that my QC was good.

With that, I hope the assholes who were complaining that I was strict back then now are enjoying their shit. At least I was strict for the things that mattered instead of being strict just to push agendas from the top.

This is a reminder for me to be patient when things do not go my way and to trust in God's timing. Yes I still have some bitterness but at least now things are better for me and I should be grateful for that.

Visual Rosary

Leading prayer is something I am terrible and terribly scared at. Thus, I sort of 'cheated' to volunteer to lead prayer tonight since tomorrow is the Feast of the Our Lady of the Rosary, it is apt and just nice to pray a decade of rosary for my Landings group.

I expected that it would be a walk in the park to just find a Youtube video to play. I was so wrong. There are so many videos on praying the rosary but I find most of them have the people reciting the prayers so fast. Perhaps that is normal speed of how the Angmohs speak but I find it even faster than my usual auto pilot praying mode. In the end, I had to view quite a lot of videos to find something at reasonable pace, a soothing voice and not boring, nice visuals, preferably with nice background music too. The good news is that I was able to find one. I think the pace is still quite fast but this one meets all the other requirements.

The bonus is my effort is not only to be used once as I think this can be something I use for my daily rosary after trying it today. Initially I thought the images would be distracting. I think some are quite distracting, especially for the Sorrowful Mystery, but overall I think the images help to focus. The song at the end of each deacde allows me to have my own prayer and meditation. I normally do this at the start of the decade but it is fine to do it at the end too.

Now I just have to download the other mysteries from this channel since watching directly from Youtube will be interrupted by the advertisement. Thank God and Mother Mary for allowing me to find this gem to help me more to pray the Rosary.

In addition, now I know how to embed Youtube video again as I tried to share this video with this post. Previously I thought this function was gone as blogger was updated and I had to use insert video function. Apparently now I just have to switch to 'HTML view' and paste the embed link/code. In the past, I could simply paste the code to the 'Compose view' but doing that now will just result in the embed code being displayed as text. It is still not as convenient as last time but at least I finally find the getaround.

Devil's work

Why am I so unlucky this week? After the demise of the custom clay figure of myself, my home internet connection was dead on Tuesday. I was still awake until 2am and the internet was fine. Not sure what happened in the morning but because of that I had to sacrifice a day of annual leave since with all the restrictions, I could not suka-suka want to report to office. It was really a waste since without internet, there was really nothing to do at home. That was one of the reason why I spent the morning to dust my Tsume statues and I was done by around 2pm. I continued with refining my faith story until it was time for my afternoon nap.

To make it worse, it was my turn to share my faith story for Landings. I had no choice but to download Zoom and use my phone. I really think the devil does not like me to be a good boy and shit kept coming to me since the past week when I was starting to prepare my faith story. Trying to see a silver lining, at least this gave me the experience of using Zoom through phone. I also got to know the data consumption. Around 2.5 hours of Zoom call used up around 1 GB of data and zapped my phone battery to 30%.

I had no choice but to go to office on Wednesday T_T The reason was not so much about taking another leave but because there was a meeting that I needed to complete before October. I really had office adjustment syndrome. I was supposed to be happier with 2 screens but I had to get used to the screen brightness as well as office is more well lit than my room. There were only around 5 people in the office and I kept being distracted whether I should put on or remove my mask. Sianz.. why did these people come? When I told my boss to register for office attendance, she told me it would just be me and someone from HR who would be in the HR room anyway. So I thought I could remove my mask.

Majority is still working from home as the MRT crowd as well as the traffic around my office was like CNY eve. When I reached, I was shocked to see only 1 lift was operating. I thought they were saving electricity haha.. I was just being too early since later on all the lifts were working. Lunch was also not stressful as there was no need to fight over seats. However, lunch hit me with another adjustment syndrome as I felt anything above $4-5 for lunch was expensive. I decided to walk over to MBC to get the Taiwanese fried chicken. At least that would be something I enjoy. Sadly the stall was gone. Bleah... Some stall were not open so I ended up walking back to get a pathetic $6 for rice and chicken at one of the newer stalls near my office.

Another distraction in the office was taking selfie. Lol. I usually hate taking selfies but I just had to immortalise this pathetic occasion of having to work in the office when there were very few people. My first (and best try) had my company logo as mirror image. Yep, I never did selfie so I did not know that the selfie camera had mirror or no mirror mode. I was okay with taking selfie since I had to put on my mask so that covered half of my ugly face.

Thank goodness the internet was fixed on Wednesday. Alas, after I logged off, the bummer email came. From next week, my office reverts back to staggered work schedule. Knnccb! I know the inevitable will eventually come but I was not expecting it to be so early. The thing that I hate the most is still having to wear mask. If there is no need to mask up anymore, then it is not a problem to be back in office. On the bright side, at least now the staggering is into 3 teams so that means 1 week in every 3 weeks to be in office. It is still better than alternate. The best part is thanks to my seat position in the center of where my team is sitting, I will not see the bitches around HAHAHA.

No more TGIF since now it is counting down to end of WFH huhuhu T_T