I don't know if it is just my feeling or the lump is indeed increasing in size. Sigh.. It is another week to go before another 'judgement' day to find out the identity of the lump and what needs to be done to remove it. Again I am worrying and getting scared although worry and fear do not help with anything.
After Christmas, I try to do daily Rosary prayer. In less than a week, I am already feeling bored. I guess I am beyond hope. I feel so distant from God that I think I am just talking to myself instead of praying. I pray for faith and it is still not given to me. Haiz.. I don't know what's going on with my life.