Hormonal Rage

Last night was a bit crazy for me. I took a bathe at 8 and by 2 A.M., I had washed my face for another 2 times plus using oil clear sheet 3 times to remove the sebum. Sigh... Is it because of the weather going warm again (only after a day of cool breezy day) or suddenly my body endocrine system is faulty? On top of that, I had several pimples appearing for no apparent reason. I stopped snacking so I seriously do not expect to get any pimples. On top of that, I felt very 'hot' last night. Starting from the moment I tried to sleep until I woke up, I was feeling very very 'hot'. Sigh... what happens to my body?

I just finished lab today and it was a hell day. Right from before going to the lab, my whole body is already drenched in sweat. Sigh.... I am terrible shocked because I always say that I don't sweat so much. But now my sudoriferous glands are very active :( After I reached my room, I just felt that I just took a sweat bath! Disgusting. Lucky it is from the eccrine glands, not the apocrine (I don't stink, you know!). I hope the weather would cool down again.

Ah PPDA... I just realised that I can die from this lesson. To many 'die' from the lesson itself. 'di-' for a double substituent, 'DIElectric constant', 'DIEpole moment', and the latest one is 'azo DIE test'. Sigh... I really died doing the azodye test. I always got brown (which is for negative result) even though there was primary amine group. Die die die de....

Anatomy test tomorrow and I still have musculoskeletal and digestive systems to mug. I think I can finish them (I MUST finish them anyway) by 9 or 10. I hope. It will be another self-touching session tonight and I shall draw down my window blinds. Haha... This morning CVS was worse than last night respiratory. Because CVS has the part to memorise the blood vessels (including the common iliac artery and vein near the lower abdomen, great saphenous vein in the inner thigh, brachial artery at the arm) and because I am very lazy to spell/think "Legs have saphenous vein.", I prefer touching the parts of the body and say "saphenous". I think nobody saw because in the morning those people from the opposite block should be at school.

Ok I shall have my dinner now. Musculoskeletal surely needs lots of lots of lots of touching :p

Boxing tennis, tornado smash, bear drop, tango to destruction, samurai return.... Hmm Hmm Hmm... Nice song anway :)

Failed Makeover

Haiz... I tried to change my blog's template and everything went ugly. The template that I wanted is pretty good actually. More colourful, instead of white, so it is more soothing for the eyes. Unfortunately, it is centred so my dark rose picture at the bottom is not at the centre of the blog. Aiyah... I am also confused how to say it. But the worst part is that I cannot remove some bars which I don't need (so it leaves a small empty column) and I cannot change the colour of the background and the bottom most bars. I cannnot make the whole thing black. So it is a bit ugly if the top and bottom are green but the rest is black. I reverted back to my original one and I forgot my original setting. I suppose I just have to get used to this 'new' display.

Anatomy !!!!

Uuuh... Mugging mode is on again. Today I spent 3 hours to re-mug cells and tissues. What the... To see it positively, I should be grateful because last week I took 3 days to finish that. Haiseh... I wanted to finish up to CVS before going online but I am feeling to tired right now (TIRED! not LAZY!) so I shall check my e-mail now and go sleep early tonight. Then can continue again tomorrow.

This is pretty funny. I think my neighbours from the opposite block would be amused (or disgusted?) upon seeing me touching my chests as I was trying to see which direction the fissures on the lungs and the lobes. After that they pulled down their window blinds. Lol. Not my fault. I never ask them to look into my room. Haha...

Hmm... I am very tired so I shall go sleep soon. Luckily the weather has been pretty cool for the past 2 days. No more wet nights :)

Not a bad start

School started again today. It was not so bad. I could wake up this morning without much nagging. Haha.. Though the first 2 lectures were kind of horrible (I never printed the extra notes for Renal and the teacher forgot to upload notes for Anatomy) because I learnt nothing and that means I will need to waste some time to read at home. The good thing was it was funny. During the first lecture, my friend and I did not print the notes but another friends brought. Then when the teacher went to the second set of notes, they did not bring the second set buy my friend and I brought. Then during anatomy, a friend forgot to print the endocrine notes. We were kind of consoling her "It is okay... You can write down in fullscap". The lecture turned out to be blood and not endocrine. So we were all laughing and she distributed fullscap papers "Nah... you can always write down here". Lol.

I did surprisingly well for living with chemistry. Haha... I thought it was a complete goner but thank God I still did well :)

PPDA test was not as scary as I expected. A part of me felt a bit sad because when I recalled my JC experience, I remembered that I was quite shocked upon leaving 20-25 marks blank during the mid-year. Then when losing about 30 marks during final year, I was not too shocked because I was quite immune already. By the time prelims, 30 marks was like no kick. Haha... Now I am really scared that I will die when the end-semester exam is very very very much harder than today's CA. But the good thing is to collect as many points as possible (I only hope that I did not do so many careless mistakes).

Talking about end-semester, I am really scared. I THOUGHT there would be 2 weeks of reading weeks to prepare for final exam. I am HORRIBLY MISTAKEN! Only 1 week! I only finished 2 modules in the last week break. So I have no idea how the hell I can finish 4 modules (with doubles of workload as compared to last week) during the reading week.

1 word only: DIE :(

HAHAHA

Haha... I find this very hillarious. Cannot stop laughing :)
Do you get the joke? Hahaha....

Precipitated Out

Usually I will say saturated but now it is worse because there is just so much information, some (in fact, most) is already out of my head.

I'm sick of mugging

I'm sick of school

I'm sick of Subway

I'm sick of the songs in my com

I'm sick of the hot weather

I'm sick of going online

I'm sick of blogging

I'm sick of monotony

I'm sick of praying

I'm even sick of myself!

Usually I'm sick only for the first two but now I'm sick of everything. The only things I am not sick of are smsing (wow... 300 sms for the past week and to one person only... what a special person!) and sleeping...

111st! I have done my best. Please do the rest, God :)

Wowowowowow... What a nice number! Haha... I want to be number 1! Not number 111! Anyway, it's a nice number so it shall be the title for today.

So...my bad habit has not disappeared yet. I still love to play a game called MOOD SWING. I was so down that my friend thought I was angry at/because of him. Haha... Well, maybe it was quite a big blow for me because that was the first time I experience mood swing in the last 1 month.

Today I felt better but unfortunately I had a stomachache. So ya like that lor. Haha...

I finally gave up on my studies. I do not think my human ability is enough to conquer the vast knowledge of university academia. I must turn to my God and invoke his help and other divine beings with me. Haiz... I know it's wrong to make God as the last resort because he should be the first!

Today mass was also quite good. It taught me the sin of omission i.e. not doing the correct thing you should do. Sigh...

I am busy reading through www.catholic.org to read about the saints. Haha... I guess I will choose St. Jerome as my patron saint. I can ask him to pray so that I will be more patient and more guarded with my tongue/behaviour/thoughts. Like me he is irascible (I deliberately highlight this because it is a new word for me) which means becomes angry very easily. Raphael is not bad also because he is a patron for eye disorders, youth, as well as pharmacist (I NEED YOUR HELP!!!!). Last but not least, St. Joseph of Cupertino who intercedes for students going for examinations. AAARGH!!! Everyone please help for me!!!

MY PLEDGE

On this very night of 28 September 2007, I pledge that if I get an average less than 70% for my CA's, I shall assume back my JC form. I shall put my studies as my top priority, I shall not socialise, I shall spend 10 minutes of lunch and spend the rest of my break time to study, and I shall limit my daily internet usage for e-mail and notes-printing purposes only (or 30 minutes which ever ends earlier). This is so that I can achieve an average of 70% at the next examination.

If I get an average of 70%, then I shall limit my daily internet usage for e-mail, notes-printing purposes, a bit of friendster and chatting only (or 45 minutes which ever ends earlier). This is so that I can achieve an average of 85% at the next examination.

If I get an average of 85%, then I shall limit my daily internet usage for e-mail, notes-printing purposes, a bit of friendster and chatting and gaming and blogging only (or 60 minutes which ever ends earlier). This is so that I can achieve perfect scores at the next examination.

If I get perfect scores, then I shall limit my daily internet usage for e-mail, notes-printing purposes, a bit of friendster and chatting and gaming and blogging only (or 60 minutes which ever ends earlier). This is so that I can maintain my results at the next examination.

In short, I shall be a MUGGER from this moment onwards.

Signed
THE SORROWFUL DARKROSE OF SORROW
25/09/07
23:08:08

Holiday is over!

Finally, the mid-sem break is over. Only a weekend is left for me to clear everything and build up my confidence of next week. Honestly, I am very discouraged and not confident at all. It will be the first test in uni. Will I make it for uni standard? Haiz... The answer will be revealed in one to three weeks time.

I have been very lazy... I did not study much. I guess I have disappointed many people, including to those people who has thought of me as their role model, as a very good and hardworking student. In the end I succumb to the evil called internet. I hope whatever my CA results are, it wlll be a wake up call for me to start studying properly... Please... I am awake already so I don't need like EEE to wake me u even more... (Oh no.. tissue... tissue... where is my tissue...).

Yesterday I took a break to have fun at Orchard. Unfortunately it was a big disappointment. There was no exciting exhibition at both taka B2 and B1 talking hall. I went to HMV and I guess $30 for a movie was too much. So because I could not shop anything, I did not feel that my depression was alleviated. So I just read some books in the library (that was the first time I know a complete story of Snow White and that actually Disney made a cross-over story between 7 Dwarfs and Dumb). I managed to get 2 Baby Blues books and I read Full Metal Alchemist 4 and 5. Sigh... I cried when General Hughes was killed. T_T.

Ah ya, yesterday I ate with a friend at Yoshinoya. Then we talked up to 1020 and the doors at Takashimaya were already locked. Woah... was pretty startled to look for which door was not locked yet. But it was a good and funny experience. In addition, we crossed the Taka-Paragon junction, and according my friend, it was a special time (1030) because once every 30 minutes, all the red light will be on and the pedestrians can cross the junction diagonally. Hohoho... pretty cool to me (I think I have been a bit crazy and insane to find this kind of trivial thing COOL!)

For the first time ever, I did not go online yesterday and I slept at 1. Haha... But interestingly, on the day, I felt more tired than at those days when I slept at 3 or 4. Very weird but I guess it's better to get my body to normal school time already. And today I received 35 new e-mails. What the freak... If I check everyday, I get around 5 new ones... But on the day I never checked, I got so many spam mails.

I went for a ridiculously short hair cut yesterday. And as I was admiring my new hair last night, I realised that my face is deformed! Haiz... my mouth is not at the center of the face, my right cheek bone is more protruding than the left, my right cheek is fatter, and my ears are not in 1 straight line. The possibility for a plastic surgery is greater for me. Haha...

I am getting very sick of all the laundry business. I think I wasted about 6 hours each week for the whole ironing chore. It is very ironic that others spend their free time to go meet friends, go Orchard, give tuitions, teach piano, and any other better reasons than laundrying. But it saddens me most when I hear that people spend their free time to mug. I want to mug also... But hey..let's be positive, I think 'doing laundry' still sounds better than 'joining hall activities'. Haha...

Ah ya, 6 hours is only for the massive amount of laundry. There is still the little laundry which is the underwear. Though I have a lot of sets, I only wear 3. Thus I must wash and iron for every alternating days. Add all the minutes spent to hand wash and iron these, it will be another 3 hours per week. NOOOO!! Everytime I think of this, I feel like just wearing disposable ones. But the memories of OBS return (the disposable ones look like girls' panties and when I wore those, I felt as if I was wearing nothing). So maybe wearing nothing is a viable option. And I have come to realise that I need to buy clothes with the 'crumpled wrinkled' design. Then I don't need to spend so much time to iron them because they look a bit crumpled and wrinkled anyway.

Because I am in a very bad mood today, I shall put ugly meaning of some words of wisdom :p

1) The wise says: Optimists say the glass is half-full; Pesimists say the glass is half-empty. I say: it depends on what is inside the glass. If it is wine, the glass is half-full (1/2 glass of wine is a bit too much). If it is coke, the glass is half-empty (I want more!).

2) The wise says: Life is like a roller-coaster. Sometimes you are at top, sometimes you are at the bottom. I say: But how come there are more times I am at the bottom than I am at top? In roller-coaster more time is spent up there!

3) The wise says: No pain no gain. I say: Who the hell want to lose something in order to get something? I want to gain things with no pain!

I shall find more :)

When I have nothing better to do (or when I am too stresed with my studies already...)

Sigh... my Internet Explorer and my Mozilla gave me different results to embed these videos.

The first 4 are from Sister Act. Hey hey hey... Great movie... and great songs! Who say Catholic church is boring? And I guess the nuns form the best choir group that I ever heard. Haha... So all you people who can sing don't be so arrogant. These old ladies can sing better than you. Hoho.. I think my church choir is more boring than them leh. Haha...

HAIL HOLY QUEEN
The one I love most!


MY GOD
The original song is My Guy.


I WILL FOLLOW HIM



OH HAPPY DAY!
Hmm... Youngsters want to complain that cannot compare them with aunties? How about this boy? I wonder how he did the 2:30 part. Goosebumps!

Okay... next is the more light-hearted ones. Haha... Final Fantasy VIII and Lunar endings.

The song during the credits is very nice. Very very nice. I look for the whole ending song and cut it for that section only.


I always cry everytime I watch this video. The music... the voices... the expression... When Luna's tears drop... Aaaargh... I cannot stop mine from flowing also. This is how true friendship should be!