My bad mood continues this week and was worsened by mid-year review. It got me to the point of thinking that I should resign to show my boss for real if my contribution is significant or not. I have to remind myself that no job is perfect and whether at least the current flexibility and work-life balance are good enough to trump all the bad sides. Bosses everywhere area also the same. They only know to point out things which are not done or not completed yet but never appreciate what has been completed. They never see if I have to complete those things criticised 'not done' then those done would be the ones not completed. Anyway what irk me the most is that even if I do things, the credits go to others but when KPIs are not met then it becomes my problem.
I was emo until Thursday night to the point that I was angry and could not concentrate for prayer. I told God that I would just be reciting for that day just to fulfill my daily promise instead of properly praying as I was really not in the mood. Surprise surprise.. My mood was sort of back to normal on Friday. I do not know what happened. Was it God's miracle? Or my mood swing simply just ended.
I am happy that I managed to get a Mass booking for today. I woke up at 515am and it was still drizzling. I hesitated so hard to just sleep since usually I tell myself that I will skip if it is raining. It had been raining since last night so I told myself that perhaps the rain would already stop in an hour time. It did not but miraculously I finished all my morning routines by 630am. Thus I could take the bus and if the rain was still heavy, at least I only needed my umbrella from the bus stop. It was really a blessing for me because now the Mass is at the main church even for the 50 people Mass. Now they are starting few timeslots for 250 people Mass for those who have been vaccinated so might as well hold all the Masses at the main church. Hehe..
I have been very patient and tolerant but this week I finally complained to my landlady about the fucking maid. She cooked I don't know what shit until the whole house was smelly on Thursday. I cannot understand how she can eat such food when they smell really like a rubbish bin. The landlord was also not happy about it so when my landlady asked me about it on Friday, I basically ranted. I don't mind her cooking but the problem is her food is always fucking pungent. When she cooks, I cannot even go to the toilet or throw rubbish. Just for that short exposure, my clothes would already stink. Plus she cooks for few hours and not as if it is for my landlord and landlady. She is also lazy about cleaning the kitchen after using. It is as if she is treating the whole house as her house. I even have to adjust my laundry schedule according to her because she will wash and leave her laundry hanging for few days or she will cook and make the clothes smell. The fridge is 3/4 full of her stuff. Although I do not use the fridge and the kitchen, it is just irritating to have her so inconsiderate. What if I actually also like to cook?
My landlady falling down is like a daily affair now. I tell myself that I treat her as my mum so I don't mind helping her. But now I am slowly getting irritated although I know that is not the right thing to feel. I am not irritated with having to help her but I am more irritated because she cannot even control the maid. Please lah. I am not your maid or caregiver and I am helping is already a very good thing. At least you help me to control the fucking maid. Plus if I am not working from home or staying at home most of the time, who would help her when she falls? Sigh.. I really feel being taken for granted. At the same time, I am also worried if I get kicked out. Haiz... Sad life of being a hobo.
Moving on to the happy things, I am quite lucky with Genshin Impact this week. I won my 50/50 and got Kazuha. 30 pulls later I got Jean which means my next 5 star will be guaranteed. Although I did not get any Rosario, I am quite happy to stop until the next version. Despite still being underbuilt, Kazuha helped me to clear Spiral Abyss for the very first time. Hohoho.. I even got full stars for level 10 and 11 this round even though I did not manage to get full stars in the previous cycle.
Thanks to the in-game good luck streak, I am reconsidering if I really should skip the BP this patch. Hehe.. I have been telling myself to skip this round to wean off my addiction as it is a waste of time to spend money on gacha. Realising that I usually mindlessly spend on food, I decide that if I can avoid fast food, junk food, sweet drinks, bubble tea and food delivery until near the end of this patch, I will buy the BP. If I am able to cut down on these, I would save more than the $15 I intend to spend for the BP and hopefully can cut down my addiction on these fattening stuff as well. I survived the first weekend so lets see if I can tahan for another 2 weekends. Huhuhu,
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